I was going to post a short story and pose the question whether or not my life has been worthwhile and ask myself if I would be better off never being born or committing suicide as a teenager. (I am a lot older now). It got rather long.
Of late my rants have gotten rather lengthy andÂ I found this one to be getting the same. I am not sure that my condensed life story and my trials and tribulations would help anyone on this list except the elderly. Old people seem to be a great minority at this web site. I decided to sit on my composition and not post it here and possibly leave it as a future suicide note.
My final conclusion is that I would have been far better off if I had never been born, but there are some people that I have given joy to in my long life.
So who do I consider at this point? I have spent my whole life trying to please others, now it is time to consider only myself.
END OF RANT!!!
Wow, I really started something, a rant that has got out of control in the past few days. I am up to 2500 words of soul searching introspection. It will be an interesting suicide note for some shrink in the future.Â He will probably claim that I was really screwed up.
Life and luck is such a pain in the ass at times.Â Here I am having lived with only 26 cents to my name and a few packs of Raman Noodles for the past 4 days.
I am really tired of surviving on noodles!!!!
Today I received my socal security check and the first thing I did was to buy some groceries and pay my past due room rent. Things have been tough for the last week; I could have really used some money for food.
Today,Â I was folding a pair of shorts that I had not used 5 monthsÂ and felt a lump in the pocket: The lump was $61 in bills.
S.O.B…Here I was starving for the past week, having gone through all my change and selling my belongs for cash only to have had $61 after all.Â Â Oh, *****!!!
Yea, you say that it was good luck instead of my usual bad luck, but the good luck was cancelled out by bad luck three days before.Â I decided to sell my Ibanez acustical guitar for some food money and while I was tuning it before taking it to the guitar shop to sell the bridge snapped off and ruined the guitar.
I can’t win for loosing
It sucks to be me!!!!Â 🙂
Suicide, violence and mass murderers.
With all the school and theater shootings in the news today and the other
mass murders being attempted by mentally unstable people, now is not a good
time to admit it to mental health or law enforcement personnel that you are
Those violent unstable ( shooter) bastards make it hard for
nice nonviolent people to commit suicide or at least talk about it. The
majority of the public, in today’s environment immediately assume that if
you are serious about suicide then you will automatically try to commit mass
murder before taking your own life. They want you to be locked up and
absolutely forbid you from owning any type of gun for the rest of your life.
If you are on record of being judged mentally ill at any time in your life,
that record will stay with you forever and prevent you from getting some
jobs. It is like being convicted (or even accused) of being a child
molester. The charge
never goes away. How many people actually fly under the
Quite naturally everyone is afraid for their children and for themselves.
Who can be trusted to not shoot you, especially in schools and theaters???
I own a gun, but no high capacity magazines. I do not need 30 rounds for
target practice. I do not like hunting, and I certainly do not wish to kill
anyone or anything else. I only like shooting targets! I am not angry and
do not blame anyone for my problems. So why shouldn’t I own a gun?
Of course, there are others that absolutely should not be allowed to own a
gun under any circumstances!!! These are some of the people that hide in
I should point out that my thoughts of suicide do not include the use of a
gun…period!! If and when I go, there will be absolutely no physical trauma
inflicted upon my body. Guns are also remarkably ineffective and
unreliable when committing suicide. Anyone using a gun for suicide is very
The talk today is that everyone wishing to purchase a firearm should be
examined by mental health doctors and get a background check,
in order to weed out the “Potentially violent Nut cases.”
We are sliding down a slippery slope in this regard; at what point will
everyone be required to get highly intrusive mental exams?
A savvy person can pass a mental exam by lying, so what good
will getting a mental exam do. There are no instruments, CT Scans or
electronic gear that can detect mentally “defective” people; they only ask
you questions in order to determine mental illness. People can lie!
If a person only wants to commit suicide but is discovered before doing so,
( or if you tried and failed) that person will probably be committed to a
hospital or mental health facility for at least 3 days (72 hours.) If you
really want to kill yourself, then lie and deny everything; tell them that
you did not intend to end your life…it was an accident, etc. etc. etc. If
you really do not want to die but cannot see any other way out, by all
means tell the truth; tell them you do want to die and ask for help. They
have a solution that you have not thought about or at least they can help
steer you in the right direction that will work for you. Hospitals can pump
you full of drugs that will make you forget about your problems, take away
your pain and give you a mental break from your anguish. Taking a mental
vacation from everything while in a hospital environment can sometimes reset
your brain and make your problems a lot more manageable. Your choice.
I will admit that the though of being committed to a hospital mental ward,
scares the hell out of me as I imagine that it does for many others.
Maybe it is the fear of loosing my freedom, even for a few days; the
to just get up and leave at any time that I want. Maybe it is a form of
claustrophobia. I do not know for certain.
I am a senior citizen and I live in a fleabag motel in not the best part of
expect sooner or later someone will break into my room and try to rob or mug
I do not want this to happen so I sleep with a small pistol under my pillow
self defense. Without a gun, I could die or be severely injured by someone
If I am going to die, I want it to be at a time and place of my choosing. I
have no hesitation shooting someone that breaks into my room, however
I have taken great care to use ammo that will not go through the walls
and hurt my neighbor. There are certain responsibilities inherent in owning
Very often, hospitals can ask you mental health questions even when being
seen for injuries.
One councilor once asked me if I felt afraid for my safety living in my
I replied that for as long as I had a gun on hand, I felt perfectly safe.
Without my gun I would not; plus I have lived alone for 20 years.
Does this make me a dangerous person to others? I think not! I would receive
no pleasure from hurting others.
So how does the average Joe know if the person they are having a
conversation with may turn into a mass murderer? Answer…you can’t, but
listen to what they are rambling on about. Some people may give you a clue
what they intend to do. Any mention of killing, shooting or getting-even
a single person, or multiple people must be reported to
the police, even if they are your friend or relative. I is very doubtful
that the average person could diagnose mental illness that will result in
violence. How many times have you listened to neighbors of a murderer,
comment on the news that they did not think for a minute their neighbor was
serious or would actually kill someone. They were nice “mass murderers.”
consider what happens if you make even a small joke about high jacking while
in an airport…they arrest you…just-in-case you are serious. It is better
that an “innocent” person be arrested than have even one innocent person
lose their life!!!
If you are serious about only suicide, then talk about it here on the
Suicide Project! If you want to hurt someone else first, then contact a
suicide hot-line…fast, and explain to them what you are considering. If
your life is like crap and you are blaming someone else and want to punish
them by killing them, then you are an irresponsible jerk and deserve to be
locked up. No matter what someone may have done to you, there is no
justification for you to become judge, jury and executioner. Get help fast!
If you do not want help before “punishing” other people, then by all means
kill yourself first, but before killing others. Yes, I know that sounds
harsh, maybe irresponsible, but what is preferable, killing just yourself or
killing innocent children in a wild slaughter???
Under the right circumstances, I think that (just) suicide (not
Murder/Suicide) is the
perfect way out for a limited number of people. I am pro suicide within reason. For children,
there is no acceptable
reason or condition to make a final exit except excruciatingly painful,
Time changes everything and mental anguish due to things and circumstances
in your life will always
change over time if only given a chance. Nothing can change for you if you
As I commented at the start of this post, any mention of suicide in this
modern day society will always be associated with murder/suicide. Do not
even joke about committing suicide; you may have to spend some time in
restraints. Maybe it is unfair, but it is what it is.
If you feel you must, then go ahead…but not now. Put your final move off
just a little while longer.
There is no rush to die, take your time and examine all possibilities first.
Live a little, before you die a lot.
Are people that want to commit suicide mentally ill? Yes; at least that is what almost all doctors, psychiatrists, law enforcement personnel and people that claim to have moral superiority and responsibility for monitoring the world population and assuring that everyone have their (questionable) values (and judgments) will tell you. Since these very same people have never seriously considered ending it all and their mind has been clouded (over the years) by religious dogma that has been crammed down their throat. Now they think they have the right to steer their touted morals into controlling the actions of everyone on the planet. With the threat of eternal damnation and the possibility of it being real, it is no surprise that most people think that way. I surmise that people are afraid of dying since it is one of the most mysterious parts of our existence. The undiscovered country from which no traveler returns, puzzles the will and makes us rather bare the ills that we have than to run off to others that we know not of. Thus does conscience make cowards of us all. (Paraphrasing Shakespeare) A most accurate statement if I ever heard one. I am afraid of a painful death, not death itself.
Humans are always afraid of the unknown. Although we joke about it, the boogie-man is a significant part of our daily existence…especially as children. As adults, we no longer fear the monster that lives under our bed that will bite your toes off if you get out, but rather we make our boogie-man faceless shadows that haunt our life. The funny thing is that in all of recorded history, no parent has ever discovered a monster under their childâ€™s bed. No one has ever found a monster in a bedroom closet either. If you ever watch any of those phony â€œghost-bustersâ€ type of TV shows, you will get a glimpse of what adultsâ€™ monsters look like. Totally fake! Yes, I know that you see shadows move and hear bumps in the night and the experts show you electronic proof of spirits, but they are all faked to raise TV ratings. When you see one of the ghost investigators walk through a reportedly haunted building and suddenly see them jump, claiming that a spirit touched them or pulled their hair, why is it never caught on camera and you never see their hair move? Because they are faking it!!! They are lying in order to make themselves look special…and make money. What a great racket.
With my technical expertise, I can duplicate every single incident that the ghost hunters swear is real and not faked for better ratings. Maybe I should get into that racket.
But I digress, now back to suicide and mental illness. (Excuse me for ranting a little.)
I firmly believe in most cases that the desire to commit suicide is not a result of mental illness but rather the logical byproduct of the existing crappy conditions of our life that seem unbearable at this time and based upon what we have experienced up to that point, coupled with the present day circumstances of our environment (and the other people around us). No I am not necessarily blaming anyone else for your final exit, but you know as well as I do, others often intentionally or absolutely unintentionally will torture us and be a significant factor in making our decisions. There are bullies out there, of all ages that pray upon us. Most of these bullies cannot be stopped. Live (or die) with that information.
One other thing to consider is that if you commit suicide, it is a real inconvenience for those that survive and for all â€œpublic officials.â€ That is correct, you cause people a lot of work when you die; so you should not do it…Right? Do you cause strangers emotional distress by dying? NO! You cause people to work harder. Do relatives want to allow you to stop your physical pain caused by incurable illnesses; Yes, but not if you have to die and deprive them of your presence. They love you!! It is much more desirable to have you suffer terrible pain than for them to miss your company or be lonely. What a bunch of selfish bastards those people really are; what a bunch of lazy people public officials are. They shoot horses donâ€™t they?
While not a licensed mental health professional, I have been studying (abnormal?) psychology and suicide for the last 30 years. Call it a professional hobby if you will. I have been psychoanalyzing myself (and others) for quite some time and feel uniquely qualified to offer my humble opinions if asked…free of charge. Having considered committing suicide myself and thoroughly researched various methods, I am operating from a unique perspective. Licensed professionals will almost never offer solutions and engage in any â€œWhat ifâ€ conversations. If someone offers a possible solution to your problem or mental anguish, then it is not your solution and if it does not work or goes terribly wrong, the recipient of your suggestion may blame you for any negative consequences. In my view, offering a number of possible solutions as I evaluate it, still leaves the person the option to choose and act upon the suggestion(s) while still using their own intelligence to decide for themselves what to do. By asking the troubled person, if they have ever considered a particular solution, you are not telling them to act upon your suggestions of possible solutions to explore. Never tell anyone to specifically do anything regarding suicide or other dangerous actions; it is not your place. Ask them to explore a number of possibilities, but they must make the final decision what to do.
I know they have their place, but I find most professional councilors sadly useless for me. I personally get tired of being asked about a particular statement (that I have made) and how I feel about that. Yes, it is a valuable tool to be in touch with your own thoughts and feelings, but people like me that really know themselves, in every respect, due to constant self evaluation, find it most irritating and annoying. I want to have a conversation and exchange of views and not a one-way dialog. I like to think out-of-the-box. I will admit that these touchy-feely questions by professionals can be most helpful for the neophyte mental patient and will help one to teach oneself how to self-evaluate, but not for me.
It sounds rather morbid but a full understand of the process of dying and what is considered as being dead is necessary. It is not nearly as simple as you may think. The way that doctors determine irreversible death of a patient is not necessarily the same in the operating room as it is in the Emergency Room. Just because your heart has stopped and will not restart, does not mean you are necessarily brain dead at that particular moment. Various parts of the brain (and body) die at different times. Is consciousness still maintained for a while after your heart has stopped? Are you completely dead when the doctor pronounces you so? What tests do doctors perform in order to decide?? Does that sound scary??? Yes it is!!! And that is why you should be very sure that you want to die!!! There are a number of good books out there that examine the process of death and just beg to be read…especially by someone considering suicide.
Do you believe there is life after death?? Are you going to see a tunnel of bright light?? Are you going to have an out-of-body experience??
I died once while in a coma for three weeks after contracting Meningitis. I was revived (obviously) but do not remember any tunnel, dead relatives or Jesus. There are also a number of good books on Near Death Experiences (NDEâ€™s) as well as a lot of good information on-line. It is necessary to consider the people that say they experience these phenomenon are probably delusional or are just lying to get attention.
Do you understand what I am saying? I know that can be a lot of work, researching death, dying and suicide before you make an attempt. Do not act on the spur of the moment!! Be sure!!! I can guarantee that researching death will change your life. If you live a single day without learning at least one new thing, it is a day wasted and you are not trying hard enough.
I do not want to blow smoke up your butt and suggest that every woe can have a happy ending…because that is not the case in all instances. Sometimes your life will remain sh*tty until you die, sometimes things change and life gets better…if you only wait for a while.
In most cases, situations will always change over time and problems can sometimes fix themselves and/or go away. Really consider what needs to happen in your life in order to make you forget about suicide. Try to facilitate that.
I have been seriously planning to commit suicide for the past year and even purchased what I need to finish the action. I have written a 12 page open-ended suicide note and eaten my last meal. (Lobster) I got evicted from my house and lost everything that I own. It was very traumatic but since I want to die with a smile on my face, ending it all was postponed for a few months. My life has not improved, everything seems to go wrong and at this time expect to end it all within a few months, maybe sooner. There is still the possibility things will change and I will decide to postpone my final exit for a while longer. I may forget about suicide completely. Although I am in mental pain and financial straits, I am not in a great hurry to end it. If I get kicked out of my motel room (because of being broke) and have to sleep in my old car, suicide will be eminent. My social security check is not enough to live upon and make ends meet on a month to month basis. No one wants to hire a man in his seventies with poor health. If I was working even part-time, I would probably hang on a while longer. Sh*t really happens, miracles do not. (In a religious context.) Long shots sometimes pay off…but donâ€™t count on it. I will not tolerate being homeless and living on the street!!!!
Are you mentally ill, probably not, but if you are reading this, you could probably use some help. Get it now.
The mistake that most people make when committing suicide is a total lack of planning and just acting on the spur of the moment. Under those circumstances it is noÂ wonder that things do not go as expected. I am not telling you to not do it, butÂ rather examine your desires to end it all and thoroughly research the method of dispatching yourself.Â Don’t rush the process, you have your whole life ahead of you to decide when to end it all. 😉
You do not want to wake up in a hospital bed with half your head blown off.Â If you think that you had problems before; imagine what you will have if you are not successful.
Take your time, read some books on the subject, post your thoughts here and then plan, plan, plan ahead. If you still want to do it, act accordingly.Â Bye bye!!!
Hi everyone, here is something that I wrote within the past week awhile contemplating my way outÂ and was going to post it on another site but then got thinking about the Suicide Project.Â It is kind of lengthy.
Subject: Suicide thoughts; The Pros and Cons…according to me. Â 1/2/13
What circumstance(s) often lead to the act of suicide? Loss of a child? Financial problems? Marital problems? Dating problems? Depression and drug use among many other things. Old age coupled with loneliness and the every day pains that old age brings on.Â Is suicide truly an act of hurting oneself? In my opinion it depends a lot upon varying circumstances. For some, suicide is an acceptable way to end the problems and circumstance that make life seem unbearable. That would make the act one of relief of pain or discomfort, not hurting one self. Of course, in the opinion of nearly every doctor and police officer, there are no circumstances that warrant cashing-in…but they are wrong. Dead wrong…so to speak! Painful and non-curable disease is one good and acceptable reason with no moral ambiguities, in my humble opinion. Â I used to participate in an on-line suicide public blog called â€œThe Suicide Project.â€ It was a forum in which anyone could log on to the www site and explain why they wanted to commit suicide. Anyone else could also (join) log on and address the person that was contemplating ending it all and offer them their opinion and advice. It is a World Wide Web site containing thousands of posts that is open to everyone and anyone in every country that speak English. The great part about it was that it is totally private and not available to law enforcement snooping except for them reading the posts. They do not report you to the police.Â The webmaster does not want contact information and after membership approval and a short probation period feel free to post your heart out. There are rules and conditions to posting that are stated on the web site…read and abide by them.Â On this site you could say that you intended to kill yourself, and generally describe the method, (but do not give detailed instructions exactly how to do it,) otherwise the webmaster may remove you from the site. The best thing is, that you can spill your guts and not have anyone knocking on your door; a thing that is not possible if you speak frankly face to face to a â€œprofessionalâ€ who are require by law to turn you in. Sometimes just being able to talk to someone else without being wrestled to the ground is most therapeutic and could change the personsâ€™ mind without being locked up in a psych ward. It is safe! Of course, there are some attention wanting fakers on the site claiming to want to commit suicide just as there are other people that are apparent Jesus â€œcontrol freaksâ€ wanting to mend you with God or Jesus. People want reality when they are considering the final exit, not prayers or phony faith. When most people are to the point of seriously considering killing themselves, the last thing they are considering is a possible trip to a Biblical Hellfire and damnation. If they want religion they can go to church…but even clergy are require to report you. Yes, I am not a Believer and killing myself is not a matter of morals or an offense against some God! I imagine that some people, at the final moment may give some thought to whether or not there is a God; this is to be expected. But then, there are some that do find comfort in the religious aspects of prayer, God and suicide prevention. To them I say, if it floats your boat…go for it… Anything to prevent needless or preventable deaths.Â Just donâ€™t expect me to swallow your religious dogma. Â One thing that really bothered me about the Suicide Project site was the young age of some of the posters. The youngest one I saw was ten years old that was being bullied at school, but did not think that he could talk to his parents. That is most sad! He could kill himself but not talk to his parents!!!Â Another thing that upset me was the sometimes violent way some people wanted to exit. To these people I always tried to suggest better, less violent ways, less painful…if they were really intent upon doing it. There are also those that are angry with someone else and they believe that they will punish the other person by killing themselves. â€œYea, I will show them by killing myself.â€ â€œThey will be sorry now.â€ In most instances if the other person is angry at them, they will not be upset or sorry, but rather consider the dead person as a fool, a jerk for doing it. Most revenge or sympathy suicides fail, since the person really does not want to die but rather to make a statement and will choose a way that is not absolutely effective. Cutting the wrists or swallowing a bunch of pills (like half a bottle of Aspirin) only results in getting their stomach pumped or their wrists bandaged. That is pathetic. Either do it right or donâ€™t do it at all.Â Punishment or sympathy suicide is for jerks. Â Purchase a good book on committing suicide (the Final Exit), read it all, and follow the instructions…if you are truly serious. One thing you will discover is the unexpected consequences of unsuccessful attempts on your life. What you think is a sure fire method, may have a low rate of success and often results in you being worse off and often in great physical pain. Do it right or donâ€™t do it at all…preferably not at all.Â Reading a good book on suicide and noting all the things that can go wrong, may be very therapeutic for you.Â Give it a lot of thought to and never attempt suicide on the spur of the moment. You have your whole life to do it…whenever you want.Â There is no rush!!Â Â Make careful plans, take your time examiningÂ every aspect.Â Who knows, in the process of planning your demise, you may find good reasons to not do it or may consider postponing it for a while longer…or the reason you are doing it could change or go away. Life is so damn unpredictable and can take a different direction at a moment’s notice. Of course, with all this examination, it could also strengthen your resolve to go ahead with your plans. Â Â The excuse that you hear the most from â€œprofessionalsâ€ is that they are â€œafraid that you may hurt (injure) yourself or others.â€ In some jurisdictions it is against the law to attempt or commit suicide but what is more to the point, is that it mandates â€œprofessionalsâ€ under penalty of law, report the intended actions to the appropriate authorities. In reality, if you unsuccessfully attempt it, what are they going to do to you? Arrest you? Give you the death penalty or jail you for attempted murder?Â Ha ha ha!!! You will however spend some time in a mental ward. Of course, if paramedics or other rescue personnel are called to â€œsaveâ€ you, you could be sued by them for tens of thousands of dollars to cover their expenses for an emergency that you intentionally created. Some health insurance companies will not cover you for attempted suicide. There is also the danger (as a professional) of being sued by family of the deceased and holding the person that did not report the threat, to the authorities. I suspect that most anti-suicide laws, are really an anti-littering laws. I believe, that is due to the fact, people that commit suicide do it in an irresponsible manner, not caring about other â€œinnocentâ€ bystanders and possibly injuring them or causing them unnecessary mental anguish when they find the dead body or by seeing them die.People do not want to clean up your mess and be stuck with a ton of paperwork. Â This may sound strange, but if you are firmly convinced that there is no other way out, try to be considerate of others in your time, place and method of suicide. One other prime consideration, is that you compose a very long suicide note explaining your life and why you are doing it.Â It is very very therapeutic.Â Not nearly enough people take the time to write a good suicide note. Write the note (or have a diary), it may even help others in the future or help Psychiatrists diagnose others that are seeking help.Â Â Even if it is true, try to stay away from assigning blame to someone else in order to punish them. Besides, you will not be around to see if they suffer from your act or admonition. That is most unsatisfying and may give you pause. Â Â It should be noted that any Murder/Suicide like we see in the news of late is totally another thing; usually the byproduct of angry, unstable people that do not want to face the consequences of their murderous act. These low-lifeâ€™s are usually invisible during their life so they want to go out in a blaze of Glory and get their name in the paper, become â€œfamousâ€ and escape punishment.Â To these people I say, try reversing the order of things and commit a Suicide/Murder. That would definitely save many innocent lives. Â Depending upon the age and circumstances of the person that is intending to kill themselves; suicide can be a viable and excusable relief for people that cannot see a way out of their troubles by other means. Please, no phony moral outrage posts at this point. Â Just as a side thought, these are my personal rules against committing suicide: Â #1 No one before their 40th birthday unless they have a fatal, extremely painful condition or illness, or the loss of one or more limbs. #2 No one between 30 and 60 without condition #1-and dependent children under 25 years old-and have talked to a councilor at leastÂ Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â 10Â times. #3 No one younger than 65 that has a living spouse or dependents under the age of 21. #4 No one Younger than 30 without a major non-surgery-correctable deformity due to an accident or war injury, plus, all of the above rules. #5 No one under the age of 21 for any reason whatsoever. Â These are my rules permitting suicide at the subjectâ€™s discretion.Â (Just me playing God) Â #1F Anyone over the age of 70 without a living spouse. (No one has the right, including family to contest the decision to end their own life.) #2F Anyone over 40 with no dependents and has completed at least 20 hours of psychiatric counseling PLUS rule #1F, PLUS is an organ donor. #3F Anyone 80 or over for any reason whatsoever. (Family, friends and debtors may not contest the decision for any reason.) #4F All suicides must be non-violent with no body or head trauma and in no way capable of injuring innocent bystanders. No guns!!!! Period!!! #5F All suicides where possible, should be committed in a hospital Doctorâ€™s parking lot in your car (my own choice) and the person has writtenÂ Â Â Â Â Â Â Â a suicide note andÂ written a Will.Â Donating your body to a medical school is a great option. See a lawyer, there are special legal forms for doing that.Â Wear a TYVIK work coverall suit if possible. It will minimize the clean-up if your body is not discovered for a while. #6F The suicidee should write D.N.R. in Magic Marker on their forearms and write a note explaining method of suicide for hospital records.Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Have positive ID on you plus your social security card. #7F All the above conditions for suicide makes it nice that funeral, burial, cremation and remains-disposal be paid for in advance by you. Do notÂ Â Â Â Â Â Â Â stick your family with these expenses. #8F Absolutely no financial profit will be permitted for any survivor relatives or doctor. All life insurance policies will become null and void. Â It would be nice if the law permitted â€œassisted suicideâ€ in a hospital environment where organs could be harvested for transplant and doctors would be exempted from any possible law suits, provided that the person that wishes to be assisted has signed a notarized statement in the presence of a lawyer, stating that they wish to die and the doctor will not be held responsible for the personsâ€™ death. Doctors may refuse to provide assisted suicide services. Suicide assisted by properly trained certified medical practitioners would be another alternative for doctors that have moral objections to assisted suicide. ((Yes, I realize the Church would fight this tooth and nail.) (Too bad!))Â Suicide practitioners must attend a nursing college for at least two years and pass a state exam to be a nurse. In addition, nurses must complete at least 40 hours psychiatric counseling before being certified as an assisted-suicide Practitioner.Â Â Â The practitioner may only set up the equipment necessary for the person wishing to end it all. The person wishing to end it must initiate the final action by pushing a button or pulling a lever themselves.. The maximum fee that can be charged for setting up the process, equipment and possible chemicals or gasses will be $100.Â I think that is a fair price. No point in letting someone get rich for someone elseâ€™s choice to die. Surgeons performing organ transplants may charge their regular fee, as may the hospital where the transplants take place.Â It is up to the insurance companies to decide whether or not to pay for the transplant costs. Â Another good bit of advice is that you see a psychiatrist for at least half a dozen times before making up your mind and committing the act. If you cannot afford some counseling, f*ck it, but spill your guts on the Suicide Project web site.Â Never tell a professional that you intend to definitely end your life and never admit that you have planned or decided upon a particular method or time and date. They will commit you to a psych ward for 72 hours…immediately!!!Â (You will have no choice in being committed as it is the law and you can be put in restraints by the police.) Â If you plan on killing or hurting another person before you commit suicide, always tell your psychiatrist or councilor the reason why you want to hurt or kill another person(s).Â This is vital information you must provide and must be done…without exemption or exception!!! Â If you are really serious about ending it all and do not want to be physically restrained and committed to a psyche ward, always be evasive about the method of killing yourself and always tell them that you are only considering suicide at this time. Join the “Suicide Project” blog, spill your guts and ask for suggestions and advice. Wait at least a week for other people’s comments. Exchange dialog with others on this site. You will be surprised that you are not alone and others really understand what you are going through. There maybe others that are going through exactly what you are, and understand completely.Â It could greatly pick up your spirits.Â Just knowing others understand your pain or torment is fantastic.Â Sometimes that is all you need. Â If you know someone else that may be considering suicide, insist that they join the Suicide Project web site, explain how it works and insist that they post at least one time.Â Even in your time of pain, help someone else if you can. Â As stupid as it may sound, never commit suicide when you are crying-in-your-beer and saying “Why me.” If you are absolutely miserable at the time and wish to end your suffering, do you really want the last thing you ever do, to be shrouded with great unhappiness or physical pain?Â I know, you think I am nuts!! Maybe I am. The day before, or the same day, do something that makes you happy and take your mind off your problems; go to the movies, go to a good restaurant and eat your favorite food, anything that will put a grin on your face before you go.Â Die with a smile on your face; after all, you will be escaping your suffering so it should be a happy time for you and the end of your suffering.Â Put on a â€œDepends diaperâ€ because you will very lightly crap your pants when you die, especially if you pig out the same day as you off yourself. Be considerate so others do not have to clean up your shit.Â Live a little…before you die a lot. My final act would be to eat two, two pound lobsters with a ton of butter and then have Tiramisu for dessert. Oh, yum yum. What a way to go. Ten months ago I did the first thing and went to a national seafood chain and ordered one, one and a half pound lobster and a pound of crab legs. They got cold before I could eat half of the meal; that bummed me out so I did not kill myself at that time.Â Next time, I will not order the second item until I finish the first.Â I will also also go to a funny movie or comedy club before eating my final meal.Â Planning your demise is very important.Â I want to die with a smile on my face.Â The method I have chosen is effective but not painful or traumatic in any way. No guns, no pills, no poisons, no needles, no sharp objects and nothing that will leave a single mark on my body.Â No one else will be in jeopardy.Â I want the doctors and nurses to comment on my great looking body.Â Â (Actually, I lie.Â I am way overweight, but it is nice to dream.) Â So, give it some thought before you off yourself, you may reconsider, or maybe not. Â You may have noted some sarcasm and tongue-inhyperbolemments intermingled in this post.Â I like a little hyperbole and sarcasm in my posts. It is up to you to figure out what is what.Â Â Â Â Hahaha. Â Dead Right. 1/12/2013 11:05 am.
Hi everyone thatÂ are still around for the past year. I have delayed ending it all for the last 10 months and used to post a fair amount. I made some friends while posting and hope they are still around.
I cant remember if my screen name back then was Dead-right or Deadright.
Here is an update from what has happened to me since April 2012.
I was evicted from my home of 20 years, since after loosing my job and spending every penny that I had saved, could not pay my rent, bills, food, heating oil and health insurance.Â I am on Social Security and my total SS income wasÂ $25.50 more than my rent. I racked up 4 thousand dollars in back rent and my landlord finally evicted me. It is unfortunate that I do not have the money to pay him but I would if I had the money.Â If I come into some cash, he will be the first one I will pay.
I had to leave everything that I had for the past 30 years…everything. Two weeks after being evicted my landlord allowed me two hours in the houseÂ to remove any personal property that I was really attached to. I appreciated that. He did not have to.Â I did not realize what a pack-rat that I had become in the past thirty years.
I did not think that I would be bothered “that much” but the moment that I left the house, I was totally traumatized and was very depressed and suicidal. I was in a total daze and just wanted to end it all at that time.
I had promised myself a year before, that when I ended it all, I did not want to do it while being miserable and crying in my beer. I wanted to leave whee I was in a good mood .Â I wanted to go see a funny movie, laugh and eat two, two pound lobsters with tons of butter on the day that I exit.
I was totally broke when I was kicked out so the above requirements were not in my reach. I decided to make a trip to the local hospital ER.Â I was directed to a very nice councilor and we had an hour long session. After she was convinced that I was not going to off myself right away she decided to let me go provided that I promised to see a shrink within two days.Â I probably would not have agreed, but the hour talking with her was very therapeutic plus she was extremely attractive. But woe is me, she was probably at least 40 years younger than me plus she was shacking up with a doctor at the time. Still, it is nice to dream, or rather, fantasize. I am however, a realist.
I presently live in a fleabag motel and after selling most of what I had salvaged from my home in order to make ends meet, I am really seriouslyÂ contemplating suicide again. Right now I have enough money to make it one more week. I will see what happens next!
There has not been much that has gone right for the past year or so, especially recently.
Anyway, I am back for a while, (with my 15 year old laptop and a few stores with freeÂ Wifi connections.)Â I have been writing off-line for a few months.Â I will probably post them here soon.Â They are my personal views and thoughts pertaining to suicide and what a shitty life and bad breaks do to your psyche.
TTFNÂ Ta Ta For Now.
Old member from early 2012 and 2011