I can’t stop thinking about hurting myself. It’s like an addiction; I just want to cut, to see the blood, to end this enormous pain.
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My father made me pregnant at age 13. Then, he stuck a pole up me until I aborted. My mother told him I was pregnant. She knew all about it.
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How do I go on after this? I am so ashamed. I feel like I killed that baby. It wasn’t my fault, but I feel like it was. I believed abortion was wrong. I would have had the baby rather than kill it. He killed my baby.Â
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I feel like dying.