I’ve worked hard but at the end of the day I’m a failure.
I’ve made my decision.
I’m going to move to AZ and live on my savings for as long as I can. Then I’m going to end it. Being here is just not worth it anymore.
I’ve worked hard but at the end of the day I’m a failure.
I’ve made my decision.
I’m going to move to AZ and live on my savings for as long as I can. Then I’m going to end it. Being here is just not worth it anymore.
I truly am all alone. No one will believe me. No one will empathize with me. No one will understand me. No one will take my side. I’m the bad one. I’m the evil one. I’m in the wrong, always. My decisions are all selfish, my attitude is always bad, I’m always making mountains out of molehills. I should just be quiet and take it, everyone says. I’m just maladjusted. I’m the pariah, I’m the freak.
I don’t have the strength to believe in myself when no one else believes in me. I don’t have the tenacity to work through the pain of being eternally unloved, […]
I’ve made so many mistakes that whenever I pause to think on how things came to be the way they are, my head starts to hurt. Every time things go slightly well, a million reasons why things will inevitably get worse come to mind. With such a bad past, such a bleak present, and such a hopeless future, I don’t know what to do really. It’s like the world will never let me forget. I can’t forget how people are. I can’t forget who I am, and what I’ve done, and what has been done to me in turn. There’s this wall of shadows between […]
25 years. At this point, I don’t have the energy to even write. I’m not allowed to think. I’m not allowed to sleep. I’m a mindless drone that spends every cursed second of his life working like a slave for the benefit of those I hate. I’ve held on this long, because I held out hope that one day, things would change. One day, maybe I would be free. One day, maybe life would be fair to me, and give me a chance for a change. I’ve been chained to these hateful people since the day I was born, and I thought maybe one day […]
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