Life….It is what it is. You look, you search, you contemplate…but you never find. Perhaps I heard too may fairy tales growing up, perhaps I listened to too many songs, but is it really so much to ask? Really? Love me for me? Be the man I need and in me you will never find a more faithful, caring, loving partner. It’s one thing or another. I had a man that lied to me all the time, one I was not at all in love with, but my lifestyle was grand. There wasn’t anything I wanted that I couldn’t have. But the lies, oh damn, […]
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If you met me, talked to me, you would think to yourself “Now here is a beautiful, intelligent woman that has it all together. She is strong, self-confident, blunt and capable.” If you knew me, the me inside, you would know even better than that. You would know the self-doubt, the belief that I am ugly, incapable, on the verge of stupid, weak. You would know that I do not have it all together. I was taught that to show weakness only brings pain, emotional and physical. I was taught that tears are for those who want to manipulate, that nothing is worth crying for. […]
I have little to no memory of my childhood. What I do remember is bad. I was molested, several times. My own father made me feel dirty, although he never molested me, at least not that I can remember. I have an issue with sex, not what you would think. I don’t need to control sex, but I need sex to know I am wanted, needed, loved.
I am beautiful, intelligent, a quick learner, but I cannot find a job, all because I was stupid more than 10 years ago and got caught up in illegal activities. They were not even that serious!
I am […]