dying2die

it’s  very high bridge with a nearly 100% kill rate. googled the news and web, no record of any survivors ever, but nothing is 100% so lets say 99. good enough.

i dont have the guts right now. but thats the plan. the suicide trigger will come in the form of a piece of news i’m going to be receiving in the next few days. if that news is bad, then trust me i’ll summon up the guts. it won’t even be a conscious choice, its one of those doomsday triggers where your brain switches off and you jump out the nearest window. only i’ve been […]

when judy garland was a child put on a stage at age 6 and soon after in front of tv & movie cameras, they started pumping her with amphetamines so she’d stay peppy through the work day, then barbs & benzos to wind her down at night so she could get her sleep before the next round. uppers, happy, work… downers, quiet, sleep. Repeat god knows how many thousands of times before surprise look who’s addicted to uppers & downers, pills & booze, look whose life is reduced to chemicals. burnt out and buried at age 47

who else knows that feeling? even if its prescription […]

this is a quote from french president mitterand on the suicide of a friend in the 90s. for that matter how about shakespeare who wrote that suicide is to “take arms against a sea of pain, and by opposing, end them”

but nowadays suicide is “the cowards way out” or “mental illness” or “an epidemic”. whatever, in the end the suicidal person doesnt give a shit what everyone else thinks and maybe thats why its so appealing. whatever shame or persecution leads you to this point doesnt matter at that moment you bleed your last drop. “greatness” or “cowardice” are meaningless when you just want to […]

in 2001 a space odyssey a computer with artificial intelligence turns psychotic. in the book (but not explicitly in the movie) it’s later explained that the reason is because humans planted conflicting messages in the computer’s programming: on one hand they programmed the computer to trust humans, but in its “hidden program” they told the computer to keep the mission’s purpose a secret because humans can’t be trusted. this seemingly trivial conflict is what caused the computer’s mental breakdown into paranoia and other nasty shit.

now lets talk about santa claus. what the actual fuck. when we’re kids, one of the first things we’re taught is […]

we begin at the end because theres no way in hell im going back to the beginning. ill take that secret to the grave. lets begin at the end and keep it short.

the ‘cure’ was supposed to be love. yeah another fucking moron who thought love is the cure. can you blame me, can you blame any of us, for believing that nonsense? the way its rammed down our throats before we can even read, the way its rammed down our throats in countless books, movies, poems, and every ridiculous pop jingle on the radio. can you blame any one of us for being so […]

it seems every suicide is blamed on mental illness. they say it in a patronizing way “oh we need more treatment for mental illness” and “oh we need to end the stigma of mental illness” but they’re actually feeding into the ‘stigma’ even more by blindly lumping all suicides together under the banner of sickess so they can sweep it under the rug.

the people who were burning to death in the world trade center and chose to jump to their deaths instead… is that mental illness? of course not. how about a 77 year old who’s suffering an incurable painful disease and eats a bullet.. […]