“Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time, here comes the start of every sleepless night, the first of every tear I’m gonna cry…”
Two months ago you were here.. and two months ago you died. Out of nowhere, and my heart has never felt so much pain. I keep trying to understand and I just don’t.. & I hate that I don’t.. This pain is unbearable. You were my best friend, my very best friend who knew every little thing about me and now you’re gone. We shared a connection no one understood and we loved each other so much. I can’t believe it would’ve been two years. Two years of love, friendship, and an impossible relationship to break.. At least I thought it was impossible to end until two months ago. I just want you to come back, to hold me and to never let go. I need you, I can’t do this without you. I see you everywhere, school, in the butterflies I always see, in my dreams, and in my head. I don’t know how to be without you. I just want to be where you are so badly, you’re pain free and so happy and I envy you so much for that.. I just want everything to end. The hurt. The tears. The grief. Life.
I just want to be gone too.