Once, a couple (who knew of my condition) asked me: “What made you like this? What is it that you fear so badly?”
“Is it pain?”
“Is it death?”
“Must be pain, right? Because you can’t deal with it so that triggered your ‘problem’, right?” What, suddenly depression is the new equivalent of the F word?
“Must be death, right? Because you’re afraid of dying, so you get depressed, right?”
No, it isn’t Pain. Although the fear intensifies our emotional pain.
No, it isn’t death. If anything, people who have the same thoughts as I do right now, Death is a release.
What I fear most is losing (and subsequently, spiralling […]