I feel terrible once again. It always happens at night, when there’s nothing to do and nothing to distract me. I feel okay with people but I don’t know, I can’t be social sometimes. I should have tried harder to kill myself before everyone knew. I should have taken more pills. Then things would be better now. Either I would be on medication or I would have gotten a better therapist because people would have known I was serious about wanting to die. Now if I try to kill myself it will be even more shameful because everyone […]