This is related to http://suicideproject.org/2014/02/31st-of-may-2014/
I know this place is more of a message board but I want a public record of my efforts. Also this way if I’m doing anything wrong or just plain stupid then somebody can tell me.
Day 1. Wednesday 5th of February.
My initial thoughts were that I needed to spread my wings a little so I booked some time off work and booked a trip to Vietnam. I have a friend that lives there and he says I can stay a few weeks. I’ve never been before and I figured that if These are my final months I need to see some of the world.
Also I’ve decided to stop taking my medication. The anti psychotics keep me too lucid and I need to live on instinct and impulse. I’ve also decided to write a book. I’ve always wanted to try and this may be my last chance. I’ve already roped a friend in to proof read it for me.
I got a bit over emotional at my housemate, but it was her fault. She can be such a cow at times. Not that she knows what I’m dealing with, I’m very good at hiding it.
Teresa at work cheered me up though. She’s such a pleasant lady to be around sometimes. She’s the closest thing to a friend I have here.
Anyway it’s a reasonable start. I hope I find something in writing to keep me going.