I was talking with my mom in the car today after driver’s ed and she’s disappointed in me for not keeping my room clean. I’m pretty disappointed in myself, too. I’m not mature. I don’t wake up at 6:00 every morning to study for the SAT test like i’m supposed to. I go and talk with friends on tumblr. My mom doesn’t even know I have an account on there and I’m pretty dang sure she’d be furious if she ever found out. I’ve made so many mistakes in my life, both minuscule and large and I have to relive those moments every night before […]
FeelingRatherBlue
So, I’ve been making these diary entry sort of deals in my google docs account since a few days ago. I was originally using the notepad on my phone a while back because it’s easier to use, but that’s the problem. It’s too easy to use. Anyone can see it. Anyways, I got super mad earlier, and wrote out an entry, and I’m laughing now because I’m just now realizing how profane the entire thing is. It’s like I’ve unleashed a disgruntled sailor from deep within me that’s been bottled up for years, and is now dropping f bombs quicker than my grades are dropping. […]
So, I’ve got a problem. It’s kind of complicated, but I need to get this fixed and sometimes, writing these things out helps me a little, so I’m going to try and get everything sorted out here. First off, I’d like to say that my grades aren’t looking so well. I’m now flunking four classes, which is a new record for how horribly I’m doing in school, and I need to bring those up. Next, is that school is almost over and because I’m a transfer student, I need to be at least passing all of my classes or else I’ll be kicked out and […]
I hate everything right now. Normally, I can’t concentrate, so I go on some site like Tumblr, but for some reason, I can’t even concentrate on reading anything on that??????????? I’m pretty tired, I haven’t eaten since breakfast, and have this problem where one of my friends likes the same person as me and I don’t know if I should tell them or just not say anything, because we both have low self esteem anyway, and nothing would be changed except the levels of stress that the two of us are feeling if I do say anything, but at the same time, I really just […]
Anyone who goes to the wavelength meetups knows the reference. Thank you for making this awesome definition. XD Unfortunately, I opened this in the middle of class, so the person next to me was probably questioning my sanity while I choked on my drink and couldn’t stop laughing during the lecture.
Here is the definition:
http://www.urbandictionary.com/author.php?author=CummyMcCumFace
I don’t know why, but I really want to make a list of ways that I cope with feeling like shit. I like to take my dogs for a walk, go on a walk by myself, listen to music, draw, and build things. The building things part might sound kind of weird, but it actually works. I’ve just been drawing out random stuff on graphing paper whenever I’m feeling down, and it actually makes me feel better. I’m interested to hear about what you guys do to cope.
I feel horrible right now. My family just went out to eat, and a few minutes into the drive there, I just started feeling bad for no reason. When we got back into the car to leave, I started crying. I didn’t want anyone to notice, so I just stared out the window away from everyone the entire time and tried my best to not blow my nose or anything and draw attention. I don’t know why I feel like this. My grades are starting to get better, and it was my mom’s birthday, so we were doing fun things yesterday and today. I just […]
I compiled a list earlier of why I hate myself. I was hoping that someone could help me figure out how to get rid of negative thoughts like those when I have them. Those feelings stick around for quite a while, and I have a very hard time concentrating on schoolwork when this happens. It doesn’t help either that because I waste time thinking these thoughts and feeling bad, I waste time that I could spend working on schoolwork and studying, and in turn, I make worse grades, making me feel worse. It’s a never ending circle of sadness. I’m making good grades in some […]