I had a fucked-up relationship, and I know I had a fucked-up relationship. I have had time to sit back and know in what ways I was abused and in what ways I was reactionary, and I have reached out one more time to this person wanting to wipe the Slate clean. I don’t know why I have this like addiction to them, but he shows a very strong pattern of narcissism. But I also don’t have anyone else in my life and I’ve had trouble finding anyone. Today I said I didn’t want him back as a lover or a boyfriend because it was […]
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I posted a bit ago about the demise of my relationship. I have been running over everything in my head, reading article after article. I can see huge parts of it being “he’s possibly a proper narcissist” and parts of it “my anxiety makes me weird.”
Every day, I go back and forth between the bad things I know he did and the good things I know he did. Why did I react in certain ways? Why did he say this one minute and contradict it the next? Why didn’t he try to understand my anxiety or listen when I said I was so depressed I […]
Every stable part of my life except my cat is gone. I’m so fucking lonely. I’m running out of money fast. I just wanted some closeness and intimacy, but everyone makes it so fucking hard, and it’s like reaching your hand out while you’re drowning to have someone slap it away.
But they’ll post the suicide hotline number on their Facebook.
Fucking horrible fake people.
I knew him for years, but this time was different. The weekend was wonderful, so much sex and happiness. He started calling me baby, darling, and by the end, “my love.” I told him later I had feelings for him, and he said he had problems maintaining relationships. I told him there was always going to be ups and downs, but not to imagine everything would be terrible before it even started. He swept me off my feet. No one has ever spoken to me so lovingly or made me feel so good. We went on a two weeks trip abroad, got tattoos together, and […]