why is school so hard? I’m not meaning academically but the people, I can’t help but feel judged and people look at me and laugh and it doesn’t help that I hate my body but today was awful. In Spanish I sit by two socialites and they always try to talk to me in a nose way and today they kept looking at me and laughing. Every time I did I only tried to hide my face and go away. It’s so hard to ignore these people and no one seems to get it my friends don’t help or anything and I just feel like I’m not needed and I can’t talk to anyone because I don’t want to bother them because they look at m and I wish to disappear. I just wish I could leave these people are mean and rude and I don’t like them. I’m not a jock I’m not skinny and I don’t wear make-up because I always feel worse with it on like I made some mistake while I was wearing it. I really am just tired of it all I want to leave and disappear and I just can’t stand the thought of living anymore. I want to talk to someone but they don’t understand or they don’t help at all.