Far away from facebook , far away from family , far away from people , far away from reality .. I sit there and cry , with every tear drop I hate him andI hate myself even more .. perhaps because I once gave someone the complete power to destroy me with just words :s
and once he had the chance , he did it .. perhaps I’d cut myself later , or maybe I’ll just end it all … but would that change a thing ? no it won’t .. the pain would only follow me into the other life , and while I keep on suffering , he just lives as happier as I was , when we were together :'(
it hurts , even more everyday spent without him .. I tried to suicide , but I couldn’t .. even when I cry , I can’t .. cause I remember that he once said and asked for a promise , that I would never cry , specially without him by my side to wipe away those tears …
what keeps me away from leaving it all behind, is those beautiful smiles over my family’s faces :'( those laughs whenever I tell a joke ..
I always tell them that if I wasn’t around , you’d all be sad .. I don’t want that for the ones that stood there for me , even though they never understood my pain or even hear those inside screams that are about to ripe my chest :'(
I’m suffering and it wouldn’t end ! I’m crying and I couldn’t stop !
It would never be fine :'(