cancer 1996. failed chemo. bmt 2004. husband broke vows, skrewed babysitter whne I was 8 months pregnant. i did not throw him out. too scared to be alone. have two amazing sons. am chronically sick and disabled post transpalnt. we are broke without my income. he earns nothing. failed at numerous careers. now I am sick, tired, unable to changr anything, unenpowered. he is visous, brutal, angry. I am scared, sad and weak. i want out. if i had died during transplant it would have been so much better. i […]