I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Is that too much to ask?
When tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand. That an angle
came and called my name, and took
me by the hand; The angle said my
place was ready, In heaven far above,
and that I had to leave behind all
those I dearly love. But when I walked
through heaven’s gates, I felt so much
at home, for God looked down, smiled
at me, and told me “Welcome Home.”
So, when tomorrow starts without me.
don’t think were far apart, for every
time you think of me, I’m right
there in your heart.
I checked into the hospital yesterday for a lung bronchoscopy and biopsy surgery in the early am thinking to myself how nice it may be that today my wish is secured. As I lay getting prepped with iv’s and so on, I wish in my mind to never wake up from this. As the anesthesiologist got me ready and said when you feel the cold you’ll go fast. As I felt the cold I begged to not wake up. Dammit. This explicative crap continues. The horror The […]
Hello Darkness My Old Friend. I’ve come to talk with you again.
I cannot do this anymore. I bought a 9mm for this purpose. Been working on gathering drugs to OD with. But considering the potential long ordeal I’ve decided the bullet is the best route. However, I have a favorite spot where I’m going to drive to, and put a bullet through the noggin. I just cannot stand being here anymore. It is simply a waste of time and I’m ready for the off switch.