Why cant I just die and get this over with. I’m outta gas and desire to do this anymore. I beg, I hope, that something will happen to end my life. I just hate this anymore…I cant continue on like this.
I want to die and get out of this. I say I want this to just “stop”. But my issue with this is that when that happens I wont know it…..hopefully. I’m so tired of this everyday I cant stand it anymore. I’m just all out of sorts and in a a very lousy place. What a completely messed up life I have. I hate all of this. Don’t want to talk to anyone. Don’t want to be around anyone. I just wish there was truly an off switch for crap we call life. What a joke this is. 
I’m not going to make it. And I’m happy to know my end is near. I’ll be gone and over with. So be it.
I beg and plead every night to not wake up. I just dont and cant do this anymore. I wish I could find my off switch. Please let me go. Just end my life now please. Im so tired of this. I just hate waking knowing that i’ll be going through the same miserable thoughts everyday. End this now please.
I just don’t want to do this anymore. I would just rather die and have this all end. I dont give a crap about anything or anybody. I’m just so tired of all this, all I can think about is having this end. Problem is I’m still alive. Suicide by cop. Just might do that. Done.
Been contemplating suicide for a long time. I have come to the conclusion that if I off myself I won’t care, and wont know. With any luck the story is over and done. Simply nothing, no more, just kaput. The one thing that always comes to ponder is the possibility of an afterlife. I can only hope that is not the real deal. I just want my story to end to black, and nothing more afterwards. Just and end of the electricity inside the pumpkin and the brain is shut off. No more, as a light switch. OFF. To those who knew me. I’m not sorry. I’m not sorry at all, you never new of my torment and this seems to be the only way to rectify this miserable life. I dread everyday waking to this life. I see no point in going on anymore. It’s a waste.
I want out of this life and all the bull crap that goes with it. Have zero interest in living anymore. I just cant seem to find anything worth living for anymore.
I come here to vent my frustrations at myself. If I could euthanize myself I would. Maybe the police officer will do the favor.
Simply pull out a gun and the deed is done.
I hate this everyday and every minute I’m alive. I just want to turn off my switch and be forever gone.
No more please. Growing very weary of everything and everybody.
I hate this. Simply put. I feel I’d be better of dead, just off and over with. Kaput.
This is torture. Every minute is dreaded.
I simply do not want to live anymore.
I simply wish to not have to deal with life.
I simply have given up.
Now, please turn me off.
Every day is a battle. Emotional roller coaster from one minute to the next. I cannot do this anymore. A plan is in place to die.
From a religious stand point I’ve given up on that aspect. Terrible to say, but I no longer believe there is really anything or anyone there. After 63 years on this planet it has done me no good. Not a single hint of help. Raised in a very religious family too. Sad. Really sad. In a rage of hurt and hate I burned my Mary Baker Eddy. Sad but its gone.
I just want this to stop and be over for me. I hate my life and I hate living though every day. It’s pointless.