Having been sexually abused as a child, I can safely say that I believe that all of my gender-related parts need to be surgically altered/completely removed. Knowing that I cannot pay for such surgery, my alternative, instead of suffering with that my entire life, seems to be suicide. That would be the one sure way to deal with it so that I did not have to feel anything about it anymore. Beyond that, my military combat experiences do not help my mental/emotional state or views of myself. As a matter of fact, a bullet in the brain sounds that much better because I never anticipated […]
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geckojudo
I just got out of the psych ward the day before yesterday for not being able to keep myself safe and planning to kill myself. I have legitimate reasons not to want to live anymore. I have had a plan for a long time, and my doctor keeps a tight reign on what I acquire for means by which to do it. I have the best doctor I could ever have. He does not think that I am crazy at all. He understands. It really helps that he understands, and it keeps me from killing myself outright because I do not want to hurt him. […]