I hate this. I hate it so, so much. Why can’t I accept that I need help? Why am I acting so cold and emotionless when all I want to do is to be myself? I don’t understand this. I don’t understand me! Why can’t I become a perfect daughter/girl for my parents and my relatives? Why am I being like this? Why can’t I move on from my crush on him? This sucks. Everything does.
girl in pieces
I’m new. I’ve been quiet down lately but I think I’m okay for now. I’m ambitious but not confident. I hv a mental illness that nobody knows except the school counsellor. Everybody keeps pushing me to do better. I always feel like I’m standing at the edge of a cliff and there’s only a thin rope that’s keeping me from falling. I love my best friend, she’s the string but I feel so guilty and stupid. Isn’t that is enough? She understands me and I understand her. Shouldn’t I fight this for her? For my future?(that is if there is one) Life is so complicated. I’m struggling to stay afloat and I’m scared that what if one day I won’t be able to fight it anymore? Then it’ll all be a waste. I have no choice but to stay and fight the thoughts and my demons until my last breath because isn’t that something?