I am starting ECT treatments this week, and will be housed in the “open ward” unit of a psyche center (as opposed to the lock down). Â Has anybody ever experienced staying in an open ward? Â What can I expect?
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This is my last attempt at “fixing” my manic depression. Has anyone had any experience with it?
I have my lists made. Â I have my plan. Â The only thing stopping me are my 2 rescued pups…. the thought of them being separated breaks my heart. Â They came from tragic backgrounds in Iran….I just can’t, can’t, can’t off myself and leave them to fend on their own until someone finds me. Â Suggestions?
1 year ago I pressed a 9 mm to my chest and chanted…..then pulled the trigger. Nothing. A second time…..nothing. I’m a fucking cop. I know how to load and manipulate a fucking gun. It took over an hour just to get through 2 trigger pulls. I had no courage for a third. I still can’t explain it. Now here I sit a year later, still suicidal. What is stopping me? 2 dogs I rescued from Iran that were abused. That’s it. I can’t stand the thought of them being separated and uncared […]
I have no idea why my gun misfired NOT once, but TWICE!!! Â After 11 years in law enforcement I am more than proficient in firearms, all kinds. Handguns to rifles, and I have an avid collection. Â But there I sat in April of 2010 in the flood control channel with the muzzle pressed against my chest, chanting and begging for a quick death. Â After my count down to five and deep breathing, “click.” Â Nothing. Â I screamed. Â WTF??? Â I checked the safety, in the off position… and repeated the same thing over and over again. Â No, I’m not getting into the play-by-play details but needless to […]