Long time reader, first time poster. This is an excerpt from a draft suicide note I have been working on. I think it sums up my situation pretty well:
I have felt like an ant my whole life. Actually that’s not quite right. Â I have felt like a maladjusted, ugly, worthless, piss-ant ant my whole life. I never came to terms with it; or better, I never overcame it. Religion enforced it. Because it said i was born a piss-ant and will die a piss-ant and for some reason an omniscient/omnipotent/
omnibenevolent being needed my love for me to become […]