Does anyone else feel like all this shit just isn’t worth it? We are born and then we die and all that shit in between is pointless. People have been pushing me to do better and I still don’t see the point of trying. After my mother died in May I was so sure of myself and so confident and I wanted to do something with my life but now I just don’t know anymore. I am slipping back into the same old hole I was in previously. Drowning myself in my self hatred and depression. They tell me I should want to live on my […]
Groteske
I often feel like I’m the only one that understands me or cares about me. It’s such an ugly feeling to feel like you are the only person you can rely on. Haha and it’s funny as hell when you are not even that dependable in the first place. I feel like shit constantly. Like a burden, a mess, a tragedy. I hate being so useless and helpless and pathetic. I hate when people who barely know me judge me.
My mother died in May and it’s been really hard for me cause I think of her a lot and I end up crying a lot. I miss […]
People say time heals all things but this is not true for everything. I’ve been depressed since I can remember….Always hating myself and the way I looked and my bisexuality and just everyone that ever hurt me or made me feel worthless and inadequate and ugly and stupid. For more then a decade I have been suicidal and I have attempted many times and there isn’t a day were I don’t contemplate putting a gun in my mouth and pulling the trigger. Metal pain killers, take 1 and sleep. Is suicide really the only cure for me?
I feel so sure of it.
My chest hurts, my body aches and […]
Hello everyone….My name is D and I have been browsing this site for a while now. There are so many interesting stories here that cover every inch of life and I have finally decided to share my own story. I have attempted suicide 4 times in the past all by overdosing on medication. I have been in and out of behavioral clinics and I have talked to therapists and psychologists and nothing has helped me. I still think about killing myself every day no matter what is going on, whether I’m smiling or frowning suicide is the first thing I think of when I get up in the morning […]