I hate every second of every day, I hate waking up. Does anyone know the point of living? I only live to waste earth’s resources for my selfish needs, spreading negativity and depression everywhere I go. I don’t see why Im needed here
I feel completely and utterly worthless and pathetic. Everyone has different expectations of what they want me to be. My friends what something, my parents want something, everybody just expects so much from me.
I’m only one person.
I fail everyone I care about and feelings of hate and depression have been welling up in me for about 5 or 6 years now.
It won’t take much to push me over the edge, I’ve had enough of this shit. Fuck everyone’s expectations, fuck what everyone thinks of me, I’m just tired. I want everything to be over.
Everyone tells me that this feeling will fade with time. I’ve waited and waited and waited and it has gotten exponentially worse. I hate everything and everyone. I didn’t get to live the life I wanted to live and that always haunts me. I’ve always wanted to have a normal life but my circumstances made that impossible.
When I die I want everyone to know I died cursing this unfair, unjust world and all the people in it. And my death won’t mean a thing. I’ll give people 2 weeks max and they’ll forget me.
It sucks. I hate what she does to me, I feel like shit, and it’s all because of her.
But I love her. She is the most perfect girl on Earth. However, she has a boyfriend. Fuck that asshole.
Normally, because of that I wouldn’t even consider going after her. She’s taken! But she teases me everyday, touching me, she’s all over me. I’ve never felt this way about anyone. I just want to be with her. And it destroys me whenever I see her and her boyfriend, knowing they’ve had sex and done countless things. She knows it’s hurting me and that I’m obsessed with her, and she LOVES it.
Can anyone help me move on from her? I’ve become too attached and addicted to her affection, some days she’s all over me and I’m on top of the world, and days she doesn’t show me much affection, it makes me depressed and feel like shit.
This is just another addition to my list of problems. My drug addiction, shitty home life, I’m bipolar, suicidal, and this girl who I fucking hate and love doesn’t make things better. Her touch is like my drugs, I feel great, then shit afterwards and I need more.
If anyone has advice, PLEASE offer it. I need help, please.
My life has gotten so fucking terrible lately, it’s funny just because of how ridiculously horrible it is. I’m finally ready to die, and have figured out a way to kill myself. I don’t think I’m gonna make it to the year 2020, and everyone else would be better off without me.
I know people would miss me and cry over me and shit, but I hold everyone back, and that’s just a fact you can’t avoid. I have suffered almost every mental illness that exists, and I feel like I’m in a point in life right before death: I know I’m about to die, so I almost take a little comfort in it, and become a little crazy. It’s like people dying from hypothermia: right before they die, they feel warm, almost hot, that they try to bury themselves in the snow. That may not make any sense, but whatever. Fuck it, I’m going crazy.
See yall in the afterlife, cuz I’m so done with my bullshit life. The amount of tragedy, heartbreak, heartache, guilt, and regret I’ve endured is ridiculus. Haha.
I get good grades, I’m well behaved, everybody expects me to be perfect. However, last year I got suspended from
high school and there’s a chance that I’m gonna get suspended again. I’m always fucking up, ending it all would make it so much easier. Not only am I getting in trouble at school, at work, at home, everyone hates me. I’m drifting from my friends, there’s literally no one there for me. Fuck my life.
I just always feel it in my conscience and it’s always in my head; that I’m gonna die young. It doesn’t even feel like I’m gonna reach 20 years old. I can’t even picture a future for myself, I can’t even imagine having kids, family around, I’m so reckless in life sometimes cuz I feel like “Why does anything even matter? I’m gonna die soon anyways.”
I just feel like I’m meant to die. I fucking hate living so much.
I’m so god damn lonely, a pretty girl could say the slightest compliment and I would fall head over heels. The next day, they would treat me like a sack of shit and it would break my heart and shatter my self esteem. I’m so fragile its pathetic. It’s not just for girls though. I could meet a new friend, and it seemed like they really understood me and for a few weeks, it feels like I’m not alone. Turns out the feelings weren’t mutual and they cast you aside, and all of a sudden we’re strangers again.
Does anyone have any tips on how to get over this? I’m so fucking tired of caring and worrying over someone who doesn’t give the slightest thought about me.
I’ve been fighting with depression for 5 years now, and I can’t honestly say when was the last time I thought “Jeez, life is good” or “Damn I love life”. I have considered suicide countless times, nearly on a daily basis, and have gotten close to doing it a couple times.
However I’m not just here to mope as usual, I want to change my life for the better. I’ve been in a shitty state of mind for way too long now, and I just want to be happy. I have done lots of research on how to get better, but I don’t think there’s a simple solution for depression. But one thing I found in common with all the advice is that on the road to recovery you must love yourself.
I try, I really do. I WANT to get better. I WANT and NEED a happy life. But I fucking hate myself so much and mistakes I made in the past are still haunting me today and I feel like a burden to everyone around me.
Does anyone have advice? It’s okay if you don’t, at least I got this off my chest.
I know compared to what some of the other stuff people have said, this might be, “lame”, but I have been at such a low point in my life lately and I need somebody’s help. I hate it at home. I hate my family. If you’re wondering why, it’s because I feel like I can’t have a normal life. I live in a strict household, I never feel love no matter how much times my parents say it to me because their words are hollow to me. Actions speak louder than words, and I have been taken granted by everyone around me. Sometimes I feel like ending it all just to teach them a lesson for the better of everybody. So basically, high school is my escape.
I haven’t really opened up to my friends about this stuff (it would just make our relationship awkward, and hanging out with them is one of the only times I feel normal) and there’s this girl I’ve been talking to for a couple of years. We’ve gotten really close, but I never asked her out. I thought I had made it clear she was MINE, but lately my best friend has been talking to her, flirting. And I feel her drifting away from me, and whenever I wanna feel happy for either of them I just feel envy. I envy him, the people around me with for the most part, normal, happy lives.
I have also been grounded for a really long time for doing some illegal stuff (I’m leaving it at that) so I can’t even hang out with my friends anymore. I’m drifting away from everyone.
I play basketball, music is also one of my only escapes, but lately the stuff that makes me happy does not outweigh the pain I feel because of the circumstances around me. I just need some help, advice that can help me feel better.