i died for you
I don’t hate myself for forgetting. I hate myself for not making the memory in the first place. I was too busy…. Being me I guess. I’m sorry
i want to die
i want to be loved but i just cant see a situation where i am. not in the way it feels right. maybe my expectations are too high……
i wonder how long it will be before i buy my way out and how much longer after before i finally take it.
How can I be ok and not all at the same time.
recovery is making me realize how alone i am
I think I want to be single….
especially 2 of them
I’m tired of hearing this. Shut up!!!! All I do is make everything worse
But I probably never will :'(
i want to recover from my disorders. i want to be of completely sound mind when i pull the trigger. satisfied with life.
im going to start this off with, im disabling comments because i dont want to be hated i hate myself enough as is and i dont need a strangers opinion on the damn internet. as we have seen from recent posts people dont know how to be respectable even on a suicide site where it should be a damn given. these people are sensitive and probably hate themselves enough on their own without your help. honest to god, treat others the way you want to be treated, unless of course you want people to hate you but thats your choice i guess.
wow i really digressed. anyway the purpose of this.
its wrong of me, i know, but i cant control it. i didnt ask for this. i dont want this. i want stability and because of myself i cant have it. i cant be with both of them. they both have said no to the idea in general plus they hate each other. and i cant be with one without the other because ill miss them. i hate emotions. they are so fucking useless……
i wanted to try and explain myself…..this wasnt the point of this…..but i cant seem to
i love you even though youre both probably a million times better without me even though i need you.
There seems to be a lot of comments unnecessarily throw out I’m assuming by the mods.
im just going to hurt you. abandon me before its too late
Live my life. Please tell me I’m not crazy and this is actually real. I don’t want to be insane.
i want to see myself and my interactions with others. i think it could help my anxiety. however i fear im just as stupid as i think.
I can do better. I know better. Why can’t I just do it? I’m such a fail.
I’m so clearly useless. I can’t even do basic things. Why am I even still here?
for years i told myself it could have been worse……and now sometimes i want to deserve my pain