I told you something like “I don’t give a shit for women’s rapes and I don’t like gays in general “. Someone told me that you are actually a woman who has been raped and not a homosexual male as I thought. So, it seems that as Americans say, I messed up!
I apologize from my heart.
I said that because I was hurt myself by women’ cruelty in life(although men were more times much worse).
I also said because I think there are worse things in life than female rapes like poverty, mental illness, murder, suicide, pedophilia and rape is usually overrated in our societies although I admit that what happened to you is very serious and it’s not less painful than what I mentioned above. I admit that rape is a serious crime which leads many women to despair and disaster. I am also against pornography which puts lots of lust in men’s minds. It seems that cheap sex is advertised everywhere.
I am sorry for what happened to you and have only sympathy and compassion. May you find someone in your life who would love and heal all your wounds.
As for mental illness, I have much understanding for you because I have myself been put in psych ward for 2 times in my life after having being involved with New Age practices.
I have also been abused by my cousin for 2-3 times when I was 9-10 years old although I did not take it seriously and I did not become gay or developed any trauma related to this episode of my life. There are far worse things in life.
You need to understand that in my language the term “homosexual” refers only to men and we have a specific term for women. You mentioned many times being “homosexual” and I thought you are a man.
I have never had anything against “homosexual” women but rather compassion and understanding.
I hope you will find someone in your way who will show you what love is.
What can I tell you more… now when you are caught in the pit of suicide?
Rise up. Hope may come to anyone. So, don’t use the Shotgun!