After each failure, each mistake, I tell myself; ” It will get better in a few months”. I doesn’t. I feel as if life just wants to see how much pain I can endure and make me suffer as much as possible before I die, which I problably soon. Now as I stare at my computer screen thinking; “What the fuck did I do with my life”, I just want to say life is just a game of chance. You start lucky, get lucky or like most people get fucked right from the beginning. Life is cruel and will always will be. There’s no such […]
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Why me? I asked when everyone mocked me?
Why me? I asked when I moved?
Why me? I asked when I had no friends?
Why me? I asked when I was bullied?
Why me? I asked when I failed my grades?
Why me! I shouted when I was diagnosed with severe depression!
Why me! I cried when no-one noticed anything!
Why me. I said when I lost all pleasure?
Why me.. I asked when I lost all hope?
Why me… I asked when I first cut myself?
Why me… I asked when I never slept?
Why me!!!! I screamed when the demons woke!
Why me…. I whispered when I dangled of a bridge….
Because.
Hey, let’s get straight to the point. I’m 15 years old and I feel as if everything I tried to do in my life has turned out to be an epic fail. When I was 12 I tried to write novels but I quickly realized it wasn’t my thing, at 13 I tried programming but I turned to be too hard and time consuming. The only thing I feel I have accomplished is getting that perfect student aura. I’m a Mathematics and Science person and I have always dreamed of doing something “more”. But now I moved to a country I hate, I suffer from […]