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Consumed by worries, having frequent anxiety attacks. Need some advice

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I need some advice. Lately I have been worrying a lot about different things, and it is causing me to have more frequent (sometimes daily) anxiety attacks. I cannot keep taking xanax for them everytime, I don’t want to form an addiction.

But anyway, I’ve had worries and thoughts bouncing around in my head at 100 miles an hour. I worry about dad who is working 2 minimum wage jobs and having an nondependable car to travel to work. , I worry about my brother with cerebral palsy who is confined to his room because he doesn’t like to go places for fear of inconviening other people (he’s in a wheelchair), I worry about my mom and her weight, my mother’s boyfriend who has kids that abuse him, and my grandparents passing away. I love them so much. I worry about my fiance being unemployed and not being able to find work.

I worry about the homeless people I encounter in this cold weather. I’ve even been breaking down in tears if I see a dead animal in the road.

I want SO BADLY to help these people, but I can’t like I want to. I just want my mind to slow down!!! I know worrying won’t help anything, but I can’t stop. What should I do? How can I stop these anxiety attacks and worrying so much?

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What is going on in my brain?? Please help!!

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(I know that some of you won’t, but please keep your rude, degrading comments to youself. Like a diabetic doesn’t ask for diabetes, people with mental illness don’t ask for it either.)

I inherited bipolar depression from both my mother and father. I’ve had a lot of emotional problems since I was a child. I was always extremely depressed and angry, somtimes suicidal. I had a compulsive cutting addiction as well, not just surface stratches..the kind like “Oh my God hold her down, put pressure on the bleeding. Call an ambulance” I was hospitalized twice which I am immensely grateful for. They gave my bipolar depression diagnosis, and started me on some meds.

Fortuneatly for 4 years I’ve been regulated on quite a cocktail of mood stabilizers, anxiety pills, and antidepressants. I have never cut since! In short, I’ve been quite happy and content with my life. I found the ASHLEY that has been trapped inside for so long!! BUT…..

in the past month I’ve noticed a change in my thinking. I’m having FREQUENT, PAINFUL ANXIETY ATTACKS. I don’t think I’m having a mood swing, but I’ve got this weird feeling in my head. I don’t really have much a reason to be sad, but I am. I just feel extremely uncomfortable in my own skin. I try to do things to keep my mind busy but I just can’t concentrate on things. I’m disinterested in everything I normally like to do. I CAN’T SLEEP at night and when I crash after being wired up for 17 hours I sleep for about a day. It upsets me because I feel like I’m wasting my life. I don’t know what is wrong with me, but it’s getting worse every day. I see my pschiatrist in a week, but it seems like a long time until then.

Can someone help? Maybe give me some insight on what might be going on? How I can make things better?

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