So my dads in jail again and now I’m a little bit of a mess because of it. It’s nothing new for my dad to be in jail or whatever but he promised me he would pay for my drivers Ed I work on weekends and have a VERY hard time saving when something goes wrong buying new stuff makes me feel better so I have no money saved and I need to start drivers Ed soon even if I started saving up now I still probably wouldn’t have enough for speed week. I feel bad for feeling bad for him because of everything he […]
I’ve been reading a lot to escape my thoughts and my feelings I used to hate reading and my sister loved it that’s how she coped with everything that happened with my dad I never actually finished a chapter book until I turned 15 because she made me read her favorite book. But I can’t decide how I actually feel about the endings though, sometimes they are happy and I just think to my self it’s not realistic this isn’t how it’s going to be for me other times it makes me feel better gives me a little hope that everything will be ok. When […]
I feel like everyone I get close too just stabs me in my back even adults that watched me grow up can become one of the most disgusting people in your life because people don’t actually care they will take everything they can from you. Your happiness, your will to live, your money, anything they can. They break your trust over and over and because you considered them family at one point you forgive and some of the things they did makes you want to forget but you can’t, the things they did they can never take back not that they actually try to because […]