i am leaving for a lake trip i guess thats what i could call it.. ill leave in a few hours since its kinda morning now. i have my stuff packed but eh i dont feel to good about it if im being honest, like i had a idea for me and my little brother to go sleepover at our grandparents tonight so we can all just leave together in the morning but i had a freak out (totally my fault..) and called my parent/s to pick me up while my brother stayed the night. me and brother birthday is also the day after we leave.. fun.. ive had a idea for awhile even before i met a person with selective mutism, that i just want to go quiet. ill feel stuck in my head but i wont have a issue with that lol. i mean the only thing that has me like kinda iffy with it is me sticking up for my little sister at school, the whole reason im even slightly aggreeing to go back to this stuck up, shitty towns school. i want to protect her and yell back at a couple people because the past years ive never been able to stick up to my bullies.. i dont know why i want to now, i guess its just all the built up rage. i- i dont know anymore.