How can I get help when I don’t know how to say what I am feeling, how can I tell anyone when there is no one to tell. I always think
‘no one cares’. I feel so alone, just me. The people around me don’t care because they don’t even know who I am. I know this is gonna sound so bad but I don’t care about anything or one not even myself. I don’t ever tell anyone how I feel, I went to therapy for the longest time and I didn’t say how I truly felt. like I said I don’t tell anyone and […]
Imjustfine006
Imjustfine006
I hurt the ones who actually care for me but hurt myself caring for the people who could give a shit about me. I have these constant thoughts that I am worthless, awkward, ugly, unbearable, I don’t wanna always think that but I can change how I look or act and I can’t be happy wit who I am and how I act.
I was off here for about a good couple years I got better what was dragging me down before I cut out my life but now idk what is. This time it is so much worse and different cause Ik this time I’m the one hurting myself I’m the one putting these thoughts into my head that no one likes me, I’m gonna be alone forever Bc of how I act I’m awkward around everyone I don’t know what to say; how to start a conversation. I feel bad for the people I like Bc of who I am idk how to go up to […]
I haven’t been on the SP for a while since January and somethings have changed since then but to me the major change was my friend found out I was self harming and my family found out and they said “talk about it you have to it’s gonna make you feel better you have to talk about it” but not talking it makes it better feel better I just have to keep moving and not think about it. But before my friend found out a couple of people at school saw, 1 person saw and said “omg” but didn’t know what to say but I […]
I feel like I haven’t been on SP for a long time now and it’s officially the new year “new year new me” right?, I don’t think it’s gonna be a new me I think I’m gonna keep doing the same old shit and feel the same old shit self I did last year. It is easier said then done to start new to have a fresh start at life when it feels like the same shit hole it did last year. There would be nothing better than to start new to act like I’m not sad more than I am happy and I could […]
I can’t help that I annoy everyone around me and I get to the point where I’m at a table filled with people and all I could do is smile and not say 2 words. Please someone tell me how
I woke up today but I just couldn’t bring myself out of bed, I kept telling myself “come one you have to get up, come on you have to get up” but I just couldn’t I just didn’t want to get out of bed and face what the day was gonna bring. Every day I wake up and put on a happy face and act like everything is ok and the ironic thing is when I was little my family used to tell me how much of a good actor I was.
I just want to tell someone but I can’t everyone would look at […]
It would be so much eaiser if I just ended it all but I’m scared of dyeing and I hate that I am cause it would be so much easier if I wasn’t. I just don’t know where my happiness went it was here one time and then gone another. It comes back in times but sadness always finds a way to run that happiness away, maybe it’s just the thoughts that are to strong and the happiness is too weak to handle. I just want the thoughts to stop the sadness to go away and just for my life to be over. On the […]
It’s just hard when nobody knows and there is no one to talk to people have asked me all day if I was ok and all I could say was I am fine and but they would just stare at me for a few minutes and all I wanted to do was break down and start crying but I couldn’t I couldn’t bring myself to tell people that I am not fine because the moment I say I am not fine is the moment I start to believe it.