my husband just went fishing and i wondered if i should be alone but i found this site. he’s an amazing person, funny, kind, smart, handsome. And last night I just destroyed him with my own bullshit that I can’t heal from. I don’t deserve him. It would be so easy right now to take my pills all at once and lay down on the couch with the pups. I would finally be pain free but you know the single thing stopping me, i would humiliate him by doing this to him. I could not embarass him by this. […]