Its only a game, why you has 2be so mad , listening to that devil in your head? is your heart ded….stop trixing yourself
I cannot sleep at night! Strange dreams. Had just raided a dungeon with super mario and luigi (i am that toad character), levled up and collected some epic loots, outside the dungeon the princess is having an important meeting and asked us all to be quiet….me and luigi start dancing and singing to the mario theme song, doopdoopduduududu…you know how it goes. At the end of it i run up to the princess a lay a massive fart on her head, she then gets angry as every1 bursts out laughing turns me into a little mini toad lvl 1 and strips me of all my hard earned loot!
now this kind of dream i dont mind whereas last nights was terrifying sleep paralyzed, multiple false awakening were i dream i keep getting up to turn the light on but then realize i am still asleep in bed while fkin grey aliens are running around the house.
Or restless super epic robot battles were i am drained when i wakeup.
I just cannot sleep at night, sleeping during the day is entirely different dont even dream and feel so at peace….Meh.
What are your dreams/sleep patterns like?
Been awhile since last posted. I’ve lost interest in everything even the things 1 used 2 enjoy like movies/series, pc gaming,girls, walking in nature even stopped listening to music and used to listen to that daily,cba with friends n family. No-thing holds my interest,all i think about now is doing a next mega trip on mushrooms or death itself, am ready to take that trip soon…..anyone else this way?
we art all suicidal no questioning that, maybe it is a longing for peace or love are true source w/e but really if u had 2 minutes to live what would you say or do for your fellow friends/ beings or loved ones? i will go first off the top of my head quoting a being i view as god incarnate…do and say as u wish <3
Time and space always change, but there is something which is eternal and changeles
I am not the perishable body, but the eternal Self.
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“All substances are part of my own consciousness.
This consciousness is vacuous, unborn, and unceasing.”
Allow the mind to rest in the uncreated state.
Like the pouring of water into water,
The mind should be allowed its own easy mental posture
In its natural, unmodified condition, clear and vibrant.
By maintaining this relaxed, uncreated state of mind
Rebirth into routine game-reality is sure to be prevented.
Meditate on this until you are certainly free
The time has come for you to seek new levels of reality.
Your ego and its name game are about to cease.
Your are about to be set face to face with the Clear Light
Your are about to experience it in its reality.
In the ego-free state, wherein all things are like the void and cloudless sky,
And the naked spotless intellect is like a transparent vacuum;
At this moment, know yourself and abide in that state.
That which is called ego-death is coming to you.
This is now the hour of death and rebirth;
Take advantage of this temporary death to obtain the perfect state –
Concentrate on the unity of all living beings.
Hold onto the Clear Light.
Use it to attain understanding and love.
If you cannot maintain the bliss of illumination and if you are slipping back
into contact with the external world,
The hallucinations which you may now experience,
The visions and insights,
Will teach you much about yourself and the world.
The veil of routine perception will be torn from you eyes.
Remember the unity of all living things.
Remember the bliss of the Clear Light.
Let it guide you through the visions of this experience.
Let it guide you through your new life to come.
If you feel confused; call upon the memory of your friends and the power of
the person whom you most admire.
Try to reach and keep the experience of the Clear Light.
The light is the life energy.
The endless flame of life.
An ever-changing surging turmoil of color may engulf your vision.
This is the ceaseless transformation of energy.
The life process.
Do not fear it.
Surrender to it.
It is part of you.
You are part of it.
Beyond the restless flowing electricity of life is the ultimate reality –
Your own awareness, not formed into anything possessing form or color,
is naturally void.
The Final Reality.
The All Good.
The All Peaceful.
The movement is the fire of life from which we all come.
It is part of you.
Beyond the light of life is the peaceful silence of the void.
The quiet bliss beyond all transformations.
The Buddha smile.
The Void is not nothingness.
The Void is beginning and end itself.
Unobstructed; shining, thrilling, blissful.
The All-Good Buddha.
Your own consciousness, not formed into anything,
No thought, no vision, no color, is void.
The intellect shining and blissful and silent –
This is the state of perfect enlightenment.
Your own consciousness, shining, void and inseparable from the great body
of radiance, has no birth, nor death.
It is the immutable light which the Tibetans call Buddha Amitabha,
The awareness of the formless beginning.
Knowing this is enough.
Recognize the voidness of your own consciousness to be Buddhahood.
Keep this recognition and you will maintain the state of the divine mind
of the Buddha.
written by Timothy Leary
full book the psychedelic experience link below
A manual based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead
every fkin time i sit on the toilet for a terd lately that moment of stillness and quiet is sacred its the only time i get fkin peace its like am trippin an altered state…. got so many friends that show up each day to entertain…takes so much energy 1 becomes less ego and more selfless….it is what it is….also used to complain when no friends would turn up and had all the time in the world for chillin.. i guess balance is key in all things…also the mind is a dangerous tool the universe responds like synchronicity…..just pure being has always relieved me 😉 <3 thx for reading ma rant
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stop being a fake some1 and become a godly no1
“Nothing in all creation is so like God as stillness.”
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wand’ring bark,
Whose worth’s unknown, although his height be taken.
Love’s not Time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle’s compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me prov’d,
I never writ, nor no man ever lov’d.
so i didnt pay the internet bill and its way overdue to go off…thing is i downloaded a 1tb worth of movies/series/games/music to keep myself sane..then the un-thinkable happened my fckin hdd went on fire i lost my phone other week also and i fuckin hate tv so ive been sat in the house with no food reading books from the library even put the noose around my neck a few times could not go through with it oh and i trapped my left hand tip of index finger in door and its hangin off ive stuck it back on and its black should go drs really…dont even know im depressed to fck…anyhow i rummaged through my house and found an old 40gig hdd hmmmm what to put on it…oh yeh and not been paying rent so im gona be fcked soon…sorry for the grammer n thx 4 reading my ramblings
Meditation is the dissolution of thoughts in Eternal awareness or Pure consciousness without objectification, knowing without thinking, merging finitude in infinity.
even with a heart broken 1 see the divine within you all! you art the source pure and forever free stop playing games with yourself be silent and see!
pure empty awareness no self transcendent infinite skylike mind indestructible primordial eternal peace that your true self or ur reborn as a fkin ignorant worm dont roll the dice with the youniverse remove those created barriers and become free <3
i just made the previous post i apologise for my behaviour yeh i was in a deep coma for over a week and near death i came out of it i went into it with such megolomania and expierences i cant explain but i still want to say i feel and know in my heart nothing is to fear and love is forever no point going into it looll
so here i am fk my life story or the fact ive been suicidal 5 yrs from a broken heart and browsed this site im drunk enough now to go buy more drink and hang out in the woods i can do it im ready for it i know what it is but this whole time i didnt want to hurt my family now im ready to go i really want peace and have this bull shit family scenario hanging over me although they was the 1s that fked my heart ffs…….should i go do it 2nite????????