I feel like everyone is walking out of my life. Â The one person who really truly cared about me throughout my good and bad times, is being forced to move away. Â He’s not going to my school. Â He’s not allowed to have a phone. Â Or get on facebook. Â And his stupid counselor people think I’m a bad influence because we never got to see each other and I snuck him out of school and walked back to my house for an hour and then CAME BACK to the school afterwards. Â I hate people.
Have you ever watched someone you love self-destruct right next to you and not be able to do anything about it?
I have. Â Many times.
I’ve been there for her so long, and she doesn’t even care. Â She doesn’t even know how hard it would affect me if she actually finished what she started two years ago.
I can barely function anymore because I am so afraid that every moment she isn’t with me, she’s trying again.
Losing her would probably finish me off. Â For good.
I’d check out permanently. Â Suicide would be a plausible option then.
Please don’t let that happen. Â Please–if anyone cares.
But no one cares. Â About her. Â About […]
My best friend tried to commit suicide in January 2012.
Again in May 2012.
Again in September 2012 because of a fight we had.
Her family threatened to sue me if I ever talked to her again.
Me and her made up at the beginning of this summer.
Even when we were still on the outs, I was there to help if she needed it. Â I don’t know if she knew that.
I’m just so tired of suicide.
She has me. Â I’m completely devoted to her and keeping her safe and alive. Â She’s like my sister, and she has me on her side. Â She just doesn’t care.
My heart is broken from watching […]