Two weeks ago I was going to give up, just do it, give my doubters what they wanted, thinking the world would be a better place if i just did do it, i hung about about the train platforms, covered myself in petrol with a blade in one pocket and a lighter in the other pocket, my mind said do it do it your a useless father, useless son, a waste of space and air i was crying i was at my wits end i even wanted to make innocent people to suffer, but something stopped me, something told me GIVE UP, GIVING UP only […]
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The pill, it makes you ill cuz i’ve lost the will cuz life aint so brill, so i’ll write my note with an olden quill as i sit on this hill, and maybe i’ll chill before deaths in for the kill
Failing to die
But something is stopping me
I’ll be honest I’m suicidal, BUT I don’t wanna die, I’m lonely, and good memories seem like bad memories, can’t sleep, but something deep inside of me says hang on just a little bit longer, I’m a 30 year old male who cuts himself if wanna talk I will listen
I’ve been stocking up on pills and really tempted to take them if they fail then it’ll be a get drunk and a wonder down to the train tracks I can’t see the point in carrying on, I feel I’ve let everyone in my life down
He looks at himself in the mirror, his eyes are black, his expression is blank, his heart is slowly turning to a cold stone, his mind is empty, he let’s a scream at the top his voice, but all that comes out is silence
I’ve given up on hope, and lost faith in this cruel world, how much bad luck does one person have take before they decided, thats it I’ve had enough, I’ve lost everything in my life i enjoyed My wife, my kids my home my job, and now i’m back at my old room at my mothers house, i cant sleep, i’m on Citalpram which i’m refusing to take, i took overdose on Friday but hey i’m still here, I’ve lost interest in everything, music, sport, consoles, but not at the thought of suicide,I want to go to sleep one night and not wake up, Â I […]