this changes nothing. i don’t see how this was at all supposed to change my outlook on this. I don’t think life is pointless, i don’t find it irrelevant, i’m just sick of being a rag doll to my parents and peers. there’s nothing i can do about it, the police won’t help me, i can’t get away. god had nothing to do with this. im just a victim of bad luck. but since there’s nothing i can do, and i need a bath, i’m going to go get my butterfly knife. see you on the other side.