I believe I am bipolar…but I think if I go see a doctor, I will get my daughter taken away. And will be judged by my family… I don’t want to take drugs for it but I know that’s what I will have to do if i go see someone about my problem. It really hurts because one minute I want to die and get to the point of almost killing myself and then I get rid of those feeling and just laugh….it fucks with my head so bad that more and more lately I keep forgetting what I am doing and makes me sad again….and then I just laugh it off as its nothing, then i get mad again when i forget witch brings me back to being sad where i try to kill my self and laugh and think its stupid that im trying to harm myself, and it brings me back to forgetting……i have been trying to wright this for over an hour now :,(
The world has been comming down on me for a long time now and i cannot keep up with it anymore, i hurt physically and emotionally and nothing helps, 15+ years of feeling terrable And i cannot keep going. Dose anyone have a reason to keep going? Probably not. So if anyone would like to help me do myself in that would a big help. I have tried but i guess not hard enough.