why doesn’t anyone understand that I can’t just keep living in this life where i dont care or feel anything? I’m fucking numb. he abused me from ages 4 to 8 sexually. and i cant get over that. it’s not that fucking easy. i hate him.
i want to kill him.
i cant tho because i’m too fucking afraid to see him or go anywhere near him/.
that fucking ass whole stole my childhood and dragged my life along with it.
i hope that mother fucker rots in hell.
i just wish i could forget everything that’s happened and never look back. but that isn’t […]
katherineendsitnow
katherineendsitnow
19. supposedily beautiful. Long light brown hair. blue eyes. skinny. college for nursing. suicidal tendencies. boyfriend of 7 years. sexual abuse survivor. Depression. Anxiety. Stressed. PTSD. medication. Death. Die. Done. Delete. Do.
Today I called my college and dropped out of one of my classes. I talked with my parents about this and they fully support my decision. After my dad and I talked about this, he took me off to the side and told me, “You seem to be going down hill again… Do you want to talk about it?”
I said, “No. You just wouldn’t understand.”
Then my dad said, “Please talk to me Katie.”
I turned and look at him and said, “Justin (my boyfriend of 7years) and I are on a […]
right now my life consists of mounds of college homework, working 20 to 40 hours per week, family, and a 7 year relationship with my boyfriend. I have already been diagnosed with severe depression, severe anxiety, and ptsd post traumatic stress disorder). So even though I went through therapy and atayed in the hospital for weeks on end against my will because i tried commiting suicide and not to mention i am currently on meds, i am still terribly depressed and anxious. I don’t know what to do anymore. it seems like once i’m doing good and am happy for a short period of time.. […]