More than anything in this world I want to change who I am. I try everything I have in the effort I have accessible. The gym twice a day, the weekly psychiatric appointments, the medications as prescribed, it’s doesn’t fix a thing. Despite my efforts I’m left with simple advice; “everything happens for a reason.” Tell me what the reason is in a constantly suicidal young adult with no aspirations to make anything out of the future. I have aspirations, I have ideals that I believe to be real yet I have a giant void between where I am and […]
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kdub1988
I just want the pain to stop. Every single day is the same recurring nightmare of a useless life and I don’t want another day of it. Every night I fall asleep praying that I never wake up, and when I do I can only feel depression that I have to go through another day of the same shit. Despite taking every type of psychiatric medication agenda and treatment, I have tried to kill myself numerous times; cutting my wrists, trying to OD on sleeping pills antidepressants and alcohol, suffocating myself with a plastic bag and finding myself standing on the top level of the […]