fuck fuck fuck it all. i cried myself into a laughing hysteria and smashed the mirror with my bare hands. Fucking reflection. fucking animal. fuck you. it was early. perhaps 10 or 11 and i was bent on killing myself. there was an Intense discomfort inside myself and i was crawling out of my skin at last. I’m alive. fuck. “just die already you piece of shit” i thought to myself. The pain and scars from molestation, being held at gunpoint, constant abuse, anorexia, self harm, self acceptance. it all came down to this. i was wrapping a wool blanket around my head until i […]