I just have this constant cycle of feeling fucked up from random things. And it’s probably related to earlier trauma I don’t even remember well. Which was just amplified because our house got SWATted last year.
So now anytime I feel trapped I have a panic attack, anytime I have a nightmare I still have a panic attack, and it’s just endless. I sometimes get a few days free of the intense anxiety but then it’s back.
If I’m lucky I’ll space out most of the day so the anxiety doesn’t hurt that bad. But I don’t get to do that much I don’t think. […]
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