I like having an anonymous forum to post these thoughts. Sometimes, you DON’T want some happy-go-lucky prick telling you all the reasons you have for living. The depression has become so pronounced in my life. I am a clean person. I always kept my room clean as a kid. I always kept my place clean as an adult. However, as this depression consumes my thoughts endlessly, I have grown a sense of not caring. My place is so trashed. My car is trashed. My mind is trashed.
I have had suicidal thoughts since I was 12. Feeling suicidal as a teen is so typical these days. […]