So, i know that it doesnt make sense, but im writing this in english so if i dont find any brazilians here, maybe, just maybe someone else can help me, i need actually information, cause im planning my suicide and i want to cut my wrists you know, but here in Brazil i have literally no idea in how i buy those Razor Blades to do it, cause the better next option would be pencil sharpeners, but i guess it would be too hard to do it, so, any help really would be good, i just need this, so if anyone knows how i can get one, or i dont know, maybe a good soul could send me one, or some, it would be really good, and i would be thankfull, so guys, anything would help.
Well, now its definitive, im going to suicide, i just lost all my hope, all my reason to live, im sitted right here now thinking that, there’s nothing left inside me to keep going or nothing to live for, not even family, friends, nothing… I feel like im never gonna find love you know, i feel empty most of the time, just a fcking zombie dead body walking around, going to school and coming back, faking smiles all day, and pretending that im sick so people won’t force me to eat, i dont have forces to do anything anymore, i cant barely wake up from my bed, well, that’s it, im here to say goodbye, to all people that understands that besides feeling empty, it still hurts like hell, i just cried half an hour straight, and theres more coming, im tired, i just want it all to end, the pain to go away.
I havent posted much here, actually its my second one, but, i wanted to say this, to people that understands, and dont just laugh, saying that im just a idiot for still loving someone, and not being loved back, you know, whatever, im just saying too much already, i really hope many of you guys can win this battle against depression or whatever you are going through, cause i already lost, Bye guys…
So hey… Im 23y old, i have been struggling with my depression for about 6 years now… Always when i think im bettter, something happens to drag me down again, im tired, i give up, i don’t wanna try anymore. I have so much rage and sadness stored in me that i dont know what to do anymore… i don’t want to study, or work, or exist… I was thinking about cutting my wrists, think was my best chance, since i can’t do it any other way, but the problem is, i live in brazil, and i never have seen those razor blades from movies,etc around, might help if you guys can give me any tip, idk, anything would help, i was thinking about using the blade from the pencil sharpener. What do you guys think?
Sorry if i writed something wrong btw… :c