i have been feeling like i am barely keeping my head above water. i move through every day trying to convince myself i matter and that my life is worth while. it is so hard for me to get out of bed most days, and i often spend days there, i am soo tired of the struggle to stay alive. tired of having to eat, tired of just breathing to be honest.
most days i do get out of bed and try to conduct my life, it feels as if i am living a lie. just making believe that i am happy and content with life. […]