Its been a little over 2 years since i have been here, i met a amazing girl i made many steps forward. But here i am again after she broke up with me for liking another guy more, out of the blue didn’t see anything coming.
I guess im not good enough again…
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i had a fight with my bestfriend and i think i ruined our friendship with it, she said she needed space and left me hanging with one of the hardest moment of my life coming up. she was doubting us being beter again and it breaks my heart since she was the only person who made me realise life can be nice and worth living she means evrything to me and il do evrything for her. sadly i ruined it i guess if she leaves me its time for me to leave this cruel world.
That moment you are sad and need to talk to somone so you call your bestfriend but shes asleep, you call a few more friends but nobody awnsers and you sit lay there and cry feeling the deepest loneliness you can feel having nothing and nobody but yourself. For who am i even stay in this world if evryone is to busy for me.
i dont want anymore of this life i want to be gone i dont want to suffer evryday i want be loved and needed not sadness and loneliness all day long,
i just want peace thats all i realy want just peace, no more overthinking, no more worrying of losing important people in my life, or getting replaced, no more pain evryday, no more crying at night. just peace that feeling i get when i sleep i want that forever
Why would i keep trying my life is a huge mess im almost turning 20 and i have achieved nothing in my life, I have been suffering from anxiety from young age and depression for the last 5 years and it only gets worse, i wish i had the balls to tell my parents how fucked up i am but i don’t want to disapoint them. So i just sit here alone again thinking how crap my life is and why i keep trying? normaly i had an amazing friend to go to about how i felt and it was just amazing to have somone […]