Yesterday was the worst day I’ve had in a long time….think it’s just about put me where I need to be. When I got home yesterday I started crushing my stash of pills….never taken it this far before so maybe I’ll be able to take it all the way this time….there’s no doubt that I will if things in my life keep going the way they are right now.
lostlady
so tired of everybody and everything….nothing I do seems to be right and everything I do seems to be wrong….I’m tired of trying….tired of failing….tired of pulling myself back up only to be knocked down again….why try? am I stupid or just hard headed? I’m afraid it’s because I still cling to hope that maybe things will get better….and hope is a dangerous thing…it’s what keeps you getting you hurt time and time again….it’s what makes you get back up instead of staying down like an intelligent person….
keep trying to turn things around but they just keep crumbling down….tired of picking up the pieces
I’m much older than the rest of you but I feel the same way….I’ve felt this way as long as I can remember. I’ve always been a loner. Others were happy and I never understood why I never was. I’m on medication for depression….though I have more bay days than good….explains why I’m on here huh? I’ve sat on my bed with a pistol in my mouth and cried many times. The only thing that stopped me was the guilt I knew I would leave behind for my family. Recently I’ve noticed that I slowly cutting myself off from my family and this scares me. […]