I have lost my ability to feel, to have emotion, but yet I am afraid of the pain.
Why would I consider the affects of failing at suicide, if I plan on succeeding?
Maybe if I have brain damage, someone might care about me.
I wonder who might this affect, but I have no one.
I think some people might feel sad but not very long.
I doubt anyone would go into depression about me.
I use to think that if I die, my mom would be heart broken.
I use to think she cared about me, but she blamed me for ruining her life.
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