lifes at a wierd stage right now for me. i think its getting pretty bad if i hate the word life. makes me think of how long and horrible mine would be, last night i tried again. but every fucking time i do all that pops in my head is my nephews and neice and my mother and how it would affect her and one time i tried and i thought it was too late then passed out for 3 days and woke up thinking you silly girl wtf is wrong with you how could you put that stress and pain on your family, so […]
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stop this pain, im so tired of it i want to sleep at a normal time again i want to laugh again and i want to be genuinely happy again not just fake happy to the cashier so she doesnt think im some snobby *****,,my motto is fake it till u make it, i havent made it yet,been faking it for years no change. just someone help me, please..
i cant close my eyes or im too scared, im scared to fall asleep.. and every male thats in my life or that i pass on the street regardless if i know they are good people and wouldnt hurt me i still get so nervous. its hard to admit this but i even got scared around my own father. and i KNOW that he would never ever do such a thing but from the day that i was sexually assaulted i just cant trust anyone. i trust four people that i can be around and not get scared, that is my mum, two of […]
im so alone…i have a big family but yet im still so alone. if im being honest i dont know what to do anymore, idont want to be selfish and take my own life i wish to never put my family through such a hard thing, but i dont know how much longer i canlive, all i wanna do is just scream, everything im typing i want to scream. but im also trying to stay strong for my family i cant show that im actually suffering this much, i feel stuck. because i know that i cant do this but the suicidal thoughts seem to […]