i feel so empty inside. I cant believe I think of suicide. It started a few years ago. I dont want to die, i want to rid mself of my big black hole that has become my heart. i feel my life is not my own, it is not filled with continuity. there is no cohesion. i want this life to be over. to get another chance at happiness. i know there is no do-over, but i want one. i want to love and be loved back. the person i should love, i no longer do. alot of the time i hate this person. they […]