I just want to die but i don’t get why i do. it’s so weird. i know all the reasons why my life is shitty, but i don’t know why i want to die. i can’t pin down a specific set of reasons, and i can’t just say that every reason is a reason that i want to die, because that’s not true. i just.. want to die. always have. being hospitalized even made me want to kill myself MORE. nothing is helping. i’m hopeless.