there’s a hierarchy in the business of social security and medication, doctors,psych wards, therapists,ER doctors,etc. i was treated poorly upon admission to the ER last week and quickly escorted off to new orleans,LA to a very pimped out facility..but i have some grieveances and i feel violated..i was CEC’d and in restraints for 7 hrs. being shot up with haldol, ativan, benadryl, and god knows what else…i was screaming at the top of my lungs to get me the fuck out of their ***** ass restraints but thay’d come silence my pleads with more injections until i finally wake to an unruly police officer telling […]
marc
just got out a psych ward on friday..at this nice place in new orleans, LA..got same diagnosis nine times in row …gosh damn fuck it ..schizoaffective disorder iis artistic..yall take care i’ll pray for you
hi my name is marc. i have schizoaffective disorder. it hurts to think..it’s hard to talk..sometimes i feel normal but sometimes it’s difficult to function..complete deterioration and agitation and fear..anxiety..im prescribed a bunch of narcotics..they try to keep my doped up to control my thoughts..my neighbors have been recording me for a long time..they have audio recordings of my movements..i receive ssi benefits and am afraid that one day i’m guna be this dude with a unkempt beard homeless riding my bike around town picking cig butts out of ashtrays..i saw my doc yest and she said i’ll never be homeless cuz of my benefits..that […]
choke choke uhm gently lifted 4 am style ..i’ll sleep when i’m dead..
yeah i’m troubled but i get by somehow..i find that writing thoughts down in some kinda poem form really takes my pains away..i suggest you try it..our minds are beautiful..i poured my mind body and soul into this city and it sucked my bones clean..worn through i still manage to rear my ugly head each fuckin day..wtf..i find my meds realy help too i take saphris 10mg 2x and klonopin 2mg..it lifts so much weight off my shoulders.peace to all your weary souls . stay up
i need help nothing feels like it exists i need love i need peace i need someone to talk to marc.gambino@yahoo.com
i enjoy reading these posts ..they really seem to help me feel better…but its obvious that we’re all on the same page..with our illnesses..so we’re not alone..just keep telling yourself that..i want to be a friend to anyone in need..or if you just want to talk about shit..hit me up at marc.gambino@yahoo.com
painfully obvious that my eyes and my thoughts and my pain aren’t my own. i’ve been tasting colors with my dilated pupils and i’ve transcended my anchored skull. i can’t even look you in the eyes anymore. i’m a fucking animal. i’m a rabid dog. euthanasia is my resolution to this empty and dried skull face. keep my mouth watered with the lord and hide my demons from my angel mother. lets see how far this waste will last. until it paints my bedroom walls blood red. schizophrenia taking me further down than hell and i can feel the earth rotating with my temples. triangular […]