It so hard that i cat take it anymore…and i now i shouldnt be saying this in the web but i did a lot of things wiht him that i was never supposed to do and thats why it KILLS me. I feel so used and i just cant do this anymore. To make it worse i had an incident when i was pregnant. I didnt know i actually was. What i ended up doing was killing my baby. MY OWN BABY!. I swear i didnt know, and i didnt mean to hit myself in the stomach. It was just all i ever did when […]
maria
maria
i am suicidal. I have been ever since 6th grade. Thats when the cuts started happening. It still is happening now. And right now im almost going to 10th grade. Its been about 4 or 5 years since ive been depressed and no matter what i see that no one, not even specialists can help me...And im only 15.....
Ive tried a long long time to be able to smile without forcing myself to. Its hard to say whats bothering me. Sometimes it feels like i dont know what is bothering me anymore. All i know is that im always sad passing myself off as a very happy person. I can fool everyone. I know that now because everyone else like my family talk among themselves saying how much i have changed since i came out of the phychiatric hospital. There really is no point in telling my problems outloud. No one seems to help me. Not even my therapist and social workers. They […]
                 Seems like ive put everything in one person. I cant seem to let go of my boyfriend. Weve talked about a future together and weve done so much together. I dont know what has gotten into him now. He would help me wiht this depression that i have because he was the one that caused it. But now he acts like he doesnt care or love me anymore. He used to act like that when i met him. He used to hurt me so much, but the problem was i loved him so fast that i just couldnt do anything but try to change […]
seems like ive tried everything to let go. I have this boyfriend and well its not all the good. My life has been bad ever since i was in 6th grade. Right now it summer and well im going to tenth grade soon. Ive been cutting myself ever since i was in 6th grade. No one ever knew i did that until i reached 8th grade. I started going out with my boyfriend at that grade. Since then my life has gotten worse. I cut myself ones so deep that i had to get stiches. People stare at my arms everytime they get to see […]