Hey guys, I just thought of something random and was wondering if you’d like to join in:
1) describe the nature of your mood, whether it be miserable or ecstatic
2) describe what you think is going to happen to you, and then what you want to happen to you
1) I don’t even know if I have a ‘mood’ anymore. I think my subconscious has virtually blocked all emotions in order to protect my conscious mind from telling me to skip off a bridge. I have skeletons in my closet that I simply cannot banish from existence, and the demons that emanate from them grow daily; they tear and claw at my insides, and I hold them back. I hold them back because I have to, because I can’t show any of my internal processes to others because of they know, I don’t feel safe. I feel uncomfortable. I hate it when people get to know me, when I become ‘predictable’ even. It prevents me from getting close to people…even my fiance.
2) I think that I’m eventually going to go to a shooting range and put a bullet through my chest. But what I want to happen is to be happy…to have what other people normally have. Not this shadow following me around day in and day out. I want to be free.